I can only take small doses

The stress from being in the proximity of somone has literaly caused me to be sick.

All though they are nice(ish) and a lovely person to talk to they stress me the F out.

Everyone loves to be around them and rightfully so they are a fun and outgoing person but, they make distions or do things that they wont be there for. Ones that I have to clean up.

Over the last week I have ask myself why I feel stressed at even the thought of them let alone the proximity

I think its becouse I feel like im taking on the role they were mean to have.

A lot of what im doing was not something I volinteered for but was given to me becouse they did not step up to the plate and do what they were meant to do so I have to

I think a part of it is resentment

I think its the 'I wishes',

The I wish I could do XXX but I cant becouse of what I have on my plate 

I also question if its envy 

Do I envy them?

I dont think I do but perhaps I envy there carleness of others, there freedom, there ablity to show up, be the 'star' and leave without consideration of anything or anyone

Im also tiered 

Im tiered of being the person they use whenever they need anything 

I think I can take them in small doeses like at an event or for an hour or three

but I dont I can take more then that

but I have to and thats the problem