I hate myself:(

T.w — S.T (no crises needed rn) heavy emotions, self-hate, feeling lost.

I'm Falling apart all over agn, i see no light ahead... i hate myself to death:( 

I'm so disgusting, idk... every minute I'm regretting my existence!! i regret my whole life !! 

It's so heavy on my chest rn, i can't really endure this no longer. 

I'm disoriented.

I'm a mistake.

I'm a sinner.

I'm shameful.

I'm so dramatic.

I just want to run away from everything n everyone... 

I'm not blaming single one but oneself... how disgrace n degraded i am !! 

I deserve ***, i only belong there... my darkness won me all over:( 

My S.T thoughts are rising agn… the efforts i took to fight them feel like they’re slipping through my fingers no:(

What the point of living?? 

No love. No faith. no proper reason to take step ahead 

My health issues keep messing up with me... i can't no longer take this..!! it's stammering. 

I'm completely out of my mind, I'm restless... can't get out my bed..!! I'm so degraded by everyone, even oneself then what's point of pointing others.

I hate the point of blaming others or my mental health for what i do..!! I'm so isolated, left alone..!! 

I can't no longer fool myself that I'm alright. I'm not, i can't feel peace... I'm not happy, not even a tiny bit. I'm a liar... I'm so guilty of my actions !!

I'm so afraid of what i am, I'm afraid of my future, apprehensive!! i don't want to be me. i hate myself.

I'm weak, mentally n physically..!! Both..!! 

Tysm for spending ur precious time reading on this... I'm grateful:) <3 

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