I’m Tired…

@jesusredeemedme2425 Doubting whether you really have a mental illness is the worst part of mental illness.

@jesusredeemedme2425

Stay in peace, my friend.

Something that helped me was realizing that we are driven more by our subconscious mind than our conscious mind. They say it’s like a glacier - the part that is sticking out of the water is the conscious mind and it’s only like 10% of our mind. The part that’s under the water is like 90% (obv the majority). Another way of saying that is that “wanting to change” is good but that’s only a small sliver of us. It’s the subconscious mind that controls our patterns, habits and beliefs. I guess this helped me because it made me feel better about wanting to change for so long, but having no idea how or where to start. Good news is that we can change how we think and what we believe, but it’s subconscious work - EMDR, hypnotherapy, somatic work, listening to mediations, coaching, therapy that helped me. This logic can be applied to any problem from ED to codependency to anxious attachment. I am sure more but anyway, that’s kind of a high level to how I started to realize that I couldn’t do it alone, and that just “doing” the right stuff and eating the right food and working out was good to create new habits, but also wasn’t sustainable without looking at why I used food/etc. to help cope when I was feeling sad, bad, lonely, like i didn’t fit in, etc. (insert whatever your trigger might be). I hope this helps, and that it isn’t just super confusing!

I struggle with over eating as well... Medication can also be a factor. Just not being happy , or loving food a little too much. Either way, just decide to eat nutrient dense foods and drink plenty of water. Remember... You don't need to be skinny in order to be healthy. Don't focus so much on your weight but ok being physically as well as mentally happy with your decisions. I would recommend up taking your water consumption ×2

@jesusredeemedme2425 😇

I'm sorry that you have been going through this😭 this is really hard to cope with 😔

You're not alone in this struggle😊, Your worth and value go beyond your eating habits✨, and you deserve love, care, and compassion - from yourself.💕💞

Keep being brave and gentle with yourself as you navigate this journey. You're doing the best you can, and that's something to be proud of. 😇

Sending you lots of love, hugs, and support 💕🌈

P.S. You're beautiful, inside and out, and you are enough 💖"

HUGS 🤗💜

I think you just took the first step…. YOU CAN DO IT!!

You should take it step by step, you don’t need to make it happen right now

Hey friend. I have this. Tell me if it helps with a reply.

Human need two things... emotional tools and logical tools to get anything done. Whether its evil and big like robbery or small and evil like cursing or good and big like charity or small and good like saying kind words.

You have the emotional support and tools... right here... you can and you MUST, and I mean it your mental health is important, you MUST share the details of your journey. Why? Because humans need tribes we are not lonely wolves and we need to feel validated, simply because it makes you feel seen and existing and like your effort matters and that is enough for you to say to your next meal "no" it will ask you "why" and you will have plenty of purposes and meanings and emotional links to not doing it.

And you also need logical tools. Discipline, grit and grind, hard mindset, whether you are male or female you can be tough in your own way. You need maybe reminders and some punishments like if you eat too much you won't do X activity. And timers and daily anchors and just some thick skin.

You need to write about. This one is powerful. Write about what YOU woild think is going to happen in the next 4 years if you keep this disorder in control. This is the logical part a SCARY *** to run away from.

What will happen to your health? Looks? Abs? Thighs? Dead brain full of sugar and oil? Bf or Gf? What would they think? Don't you want to be the best version? Your career and studies? Can you focus? Your self esteem when you live in you own skin? You proud of it? What if you started right now? I DONT CARE if you are 90 or 10 years old. You can always put a goal and pursue it no matter how much you have left or have lived. What if you started 3 years after this massgae. Wouldn't thta be a waste. You will feel happy and whole and fulfilled no matter your age or gender.Don't compare yourself.

Now... are you scared? Well...don't be.. because this isn't you now..but bit by bit you will be...and maybe worse. So now you have a strong logical reason to stop but I care about you and i don't want to freeze you with fear like m father did to me because that doesn't work. Next now tell me... what do you want to be? Hmm? Strong guy with abs? Lean? Maybe not lean but muscles? Bulk? OH or maybe get a beard and a mustache? THAT is sexy. Maybe you want slim thighs? Strong hips? Feminine and elegant legs? Maybe you want to get going like a female models? Hmm, queen?

You got exicted? Well now write it down. What do you want to be... everything you want be that has to do with this eating disorder.

Sharp eyes? Clearly head? More time for yourself or work. Anything

And now yoi have a *** to run away from and a heaven to run into and it's YOURS by YOUR STANDARDS and needs. Write down for 15 10 minutes.

And never say your broken..its very VERY likely that your brain learnd that eating calms you down as coping method. All of us are like this. I watch adult content when my father tells me to come to work... I shake and sweat and get scared.

So maybe you can go back in the past 3 7 10 20 years... what made you like this? Since you cant be born wrong or broken or "undisciplined" since yoi KNOW its bad but your brain is not helping you stop... something has happend to your pure soul..and you can... fix it. Its ok. Doesnt matter how long it has been... since we start now .We will help you and you will be what yoi desire.

Do these things. The two wirting and don't forget to share what you did since not expressing emotions will make you heavy and unable to move in life so share with us so you can feel like you exist and matter since you DO and I will make sure you see it. And dig a bit in your past... that knowledge will help yoi find stronger will and more emotional fuel to fight.

Also for the writing if its privet and you don't want to share itits ok. It's for your mind to learn what is happend since things are messy and writing helps you understand and find purposes.

Also you can type it in a pc or laptop or hand writing. What ever makes you comfortable most. Write for 10 15 mintues without stopping ok? Nevermind Grammer jusr dumb it. Then reread it quickly. If you want to share it go ahead.

If you read this please reply to me and tell me waht you think. Doesi t feel right? Good? Off. Wrong? Hard? Relief? Anything ever dryer theme. Just tell me if want to help you. Cheers strong soul.