I'm really sad and humiliated I don't have access to good food
I am reliant on family for food, don't even cook. They cook food that are good for them, because they have kidney problems. I often tell them to cook food that is also good for me along the side. Sometimes they do, sometimes don't. My stomach gets upset after eating the too much oily and spicy food. I would like access to fresh vegetables and mild spiced food but I can't manage time because I'm always overwhelmed with studies and doing anything in general. I don't have money to buy food for myself. I feel pretty sad and lonely. Afraid the bad food will give me permanent illness. I feel like I am always in danger. I managed some monthly money from one of my relatives but I feel like I would have to pay for it, I am already borrowing it and now I feel I will have to emotionally pay for it as well, help him solve his life problems, being an emotional support. Do I say no to the money or do I continue taking it risking being used later? I feel gross about my existence. I know there's something bad is happening here but can't put it into words. I feel gross about myself. I'm really sad and lonely.
@seashell145
small changes could help you if you have any time you could learn or help cook....
i am familiar with diet for kidneys . i have tried were incredibly bland but as most Kidney restrictions are about salt some put spice on instead.... if there if only for minute pull out a portion before they spice it up or what ever you dislike about it some items can be tamed by adding for example more liquids if a sauce.
taking money without knowing if or when they will be expectations of you is iffy but you should define what they want in return .
@toughTiger6481
Yeah I see a lot of advice going on here as if I hadn't tried any of it.
I asked for the money because I had prospects of a wonderful career and this guy forked it up for me, he said he didn't know he was forking up. So after five years I am on the verge of career prospects again, and I thought this time he would like to correct his sins. Guess what? He hasn't changed a bit. It is just as it was five years ago, me on the verge of a probable good career and him trying to use me to satiate his unquenchable need to always chase something 'big' that would have big social status. Before I didn't even ask for money but he still tried to use me, used my money twice. It is true, it is iffy especially when it's always about them and you don't have the power to stand up to them, you're vulnerable. Anyway I said no to the money and have accepted my fate. My defeat is sweeter to my heart than all world glory.
People think things can be solved with advice, they're so emotionally immature.
Is this a thread about great food, that is awesome thank you for your post. I think since I am diagnosed with schizophrenia and other diagnoses I can tell when the food tastes bad and when it is good.
With so much going on and the end of this month all we can do is sit with Santa I am grateful. This is a good time to save money because the moves it is making by all types of people this Christmas.
It's okay, I'm not judging you, but use these words to however you would like as a gift that is the resolution.
@bubbleTown7508
This is an absolutely unhelpful comment. It has lack of empathy and assumes things about me like I am not grateful already.
@seashell145
If you live in the USA - please try this web site :
findhelp.org
@spongbobishappy
I don't live in the USA but that's really nice of you to point food sources to me :)
@spongbobishappy
That's assuming it was food source. I can't even access the site but thank you.