It's weird. Tw: Sexual Assault

Its weird being away from the person who sexually assaulted me multiple times. It's weird that I can wear cute pajamas around the house without thinking I'm showing too much skin. It's weird not being on edge constantly wondering when it'll happen again. It's weird to actually be able to work on things in therapy because I'm finally out of that house and away from him. Therapy is hard. I had a session today, and my therapist is great but talking about things I've never talked about before is gut wrenching. I want to forget but I cant. Therapy doesn't help in that aspect I can't even try to forget or avoid thinking about it because therapy is bringing it up. At the same time, it's a relief to have therapy because it's really the first time I'm being heard, believed, and not being told to be quiet or stop talking about it. So, as hard as therapy is I feel like it's a huge help. However its exhausted me for the day. I'm tired. I want to cry and sleep but sadly I have to work soon.