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agreeableSkies9889
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Using this platform as support as I navigate anxiety, depression, trauma, and gender dysphoria

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Feeling rather sad
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 1 day ago
...See more Recently a lot has happened. I've been trying to push myself to get out of my situation. My biggest hurdle is not knowing how to drive in a very rural area not meant for people like me. If my family was more accepting it really wouldn't be a big deal but they are very much not. I felt very down recently because I have come to the conclusion that I will always be depressed unless I transition. I've been experimenting a lot with my gender for awhile now and I just feel more like me when I'm fem... I hate my body so much... I have felt like this since at least ten when I first started getting jealous of girls... I just don't understand why it has to be me? Why do I have to deal with this? Why couldn't I just be gay? I hate my life... I am happy that I have someone now I can be honest with my gender identity around but my family will probably not accept me and I don't know what to do... I want to transition but I'm soo scared cuz what if I can't hide it?
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I can't do it anymore guys
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 Thursday
...See more This is so hard. I really genuinely feel like no one loves me. I feel really scared to come out and I am too tall to be a girl anyways
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Hi again:3
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 October 24th
...See more It's been awhile since I've been on here mostly just because it's felt like too much with people I don't have a face to their name (which can make it hard to relate for me sometimes). I have realized I need constant praise and if someone says something negative about me I almost break... I also am realizing I most definitely have undiagnosed autism... I can rant the guy I like about my live for Godzilla for hours straight without realizing... Oh well lol ... Hope everyone is ok
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I feel like giving up
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 October 11th
...See more Hey everyone! I have been going through it. Most of you who know me on here know that I'm closeted trans. It's been really hard recently. I have a very strong disconnect between online life and my real life. People online shower me with praise, call me pretty. The people I've shown my face too say I look beautiful and my clothes are nice but in real life every sees me as a guy. I have become so depressed and desperate that I have been sharing with online strangers very deep personal things about my life. I don't know what to do. My loneliness is becoming to much of a burden. There's was one really intense connection I had with a guy online for two days who made me feel so gross but I gave into because I was lonely... I don't know what to do... I walked off my job in the middle off helping a customer. My room is disgustingly dirty... I haven't changed my sheets in months... I don't care much about anything right now. I can't focus at all. I feel like I completely gave up on life
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I don't know if I can get though this
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 27th
...See more My parents are horrible and they're all I have 😞 I don't know what to do. I can't move out. I can't drive because I have an eye problem. I can't even imagine having enough courage to do public transportation because I have way to much anxiety and trauma to trust a stranger. My sister doesn't drive anymore and I cut ties with my extended family so I only have my parents to drive me. I feel like a bum and burden. I hate liking guys. I hate that I still miss someone that probably never thinks about me. I hate that I wanted someone who was 21 when I was 17. I hate that I'm so lonely that I seriously am thinking about trying online dating. I wish I had anything going for me besides having a job that doesn't pay me enough to live 😞 I can't even be a manager because I'm a bum that can't drive I legit hate myself rn
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I don't know what to do
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 5th
...See more I'm scared... I don't know what to do... I... I wish I could make everything better. My family who I love hates me besides my mom and dad who don't know I'm trans and if they did they'd hate me too. Im so scared. I'm depressed. I can't sleep. I have a horrible head ache. I feel like I'm dying. I'm completely exhausted. People call me he and my guy name... When someone first called me my girl name on voice message a few days ago.... Wow... I... That was a lot in a good way... Never felt like myself before that. I just need someone to make me feel happy and distract me because I'm legit losing my color to hateful people that don't deserve it in the first place
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Being in the closet is killing me
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 3rd
...See more I don't know how much longer I can do this. I keep thinking," just tell them", but I'm so afraid. I'm still experimenting and I don't know if I'd be able to move out if it got bad because I have no credit. I have enough money and a good job. I'm a hard worker, but I don't know things might change if I'm openly trans too. I'm just really scared. I've been neglecting my health, I need multiple surgeries that I need to do but I put them off because I hate myself and have no strength. I've been eating away my feelings. My family is killing me. I don't even like doing art anymore. I look in the mirror and think "I don't know you. You aren't familiar to me. ". I feel like I'm living in a body that isn't mine and in a society that hates me.
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Pen Pals / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 Thursday
...See more Hey!!!! @carefulEast6708 ! We can chat here about anything if you want! I'm an open book! We can talk about deep stuff and interest and stuff!
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