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agreeableSkies9889
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PathStep 10 Compassion hearts1,975 Forum posts683 Forum upvotes1,885 Current upvotes1,885 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2026 Member sinceFebruary 24, 2026
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Using this platform as support as I navigate anxiety, depression, trauma, and gender dysphoria

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I feel like giving up
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 2 days ago
...See more Hey everyone! I have been going through it. Most of you who know me on here know that I'm closeted trans. It's been really hard recently. I have a very strong disconnect between online life and my real life. People online shower me with praise, call me pretty. The people I've shown my face too say I look beautiful and my clothes are nice but in real life every sees me as a guy. I have become so depressed and desperate that I have been sharing with online strangers very deep personal things about my life. I don't know what to do. My loneliness is becoming to much of a burden. There's was one really intense connection I had with a guy online for two days who made me feel so gross but I gave into because I was lonely... I don't know what to do... I walked off my job in the middle off helping a customer. My room is disgustingly dirty... I haven't changed my sheets in months... I don't care much about anything right now. I can't focus at all. I feel like I completely gave up on life
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I don't know if I can get though this
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 27th
...See more My parents are horrible and they're all I have 😞 I don't know what to do. I can't move out. I can't drive because I have an eye problem. I can't even imagine having enough courage to do public transportation because I have way to much anxiety and trauma to trust a stranger. My sister doesn't drive anymore and I cut ties with my extended family so I only have my parents to drive me. I feel like a bum and burden. I hate liking guys. I hate that I still miss someone that probably never thinks about me. I hate that I wanted someone who was 21 when I was 17. I hate that I'm so lonely that I seriously am thinking about trying online dating. I wish I had anything going for me besides having a job that doesn't pay me enough to live 😞 I can't even be a manager because I'm a bum that can't drive I legit hate myself rn
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I don't know what to do
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 5th
...See more I'm scared... I don't know what to do... I... I wish I could make everything better. My family who I love hates me besides my mom and dad who don't know I'm trans and if they did they'd hate me too. Im so scared. I'm depressed. I can't sleep. I have a horrible head ache. I feel like I'm dying. I'm completely exhausted. People call me he and my guy name... When someone first called me my girl name on voice message a few days ago.... Wow... I... That was a lot in a good way... Never felt like myself before that. I just need someone to make me feel happy and distract me because I'm legit losing my color to hateful people that don't deserve it in the first place
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Being in the closet is killing me
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 3rd
...See more I don't know how much longer I can do this. I keep thinking," just tell them", but I'm so afraid. I'm still experimenting and I don't know if I'd be able to move out if it got bad because I have no credit. I have enough money and a good job. I'm a hard worker, but I don't know things might change if I'm openly trans too. I'm just really scared. I've been neglecting my health, I need multiple surgeries that I need to do but I put them off because I hate myself and have no strength. I've been eating away my feelings. My family is killing me. I don't even like doing art anymore. I look in the mirror and think "I don't know you. You aren't familiar to me. ". I feel like I'm living in a body that isn't mine and in a society that hates me.
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Chat Between @agreeableskies9889 and @carefulEast6708
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 Friday
...See more Hey!!!! @carefulEast6708 ! We can chat here about anything if you want! I'm an open book! We can talk about deep stuff and interest and stuff!
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I'm so lonely
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 June 26th
...See more I have never dated and I guess I'm starting to feel pretty down about it. I feel like there's something wrong with me in general and I struggle doing anything without panicking and having extreme anxiety attacks. I don't feel like myself and I should do more work on myself but that doesn't mean I haven't been feeling extremely lonely... It's starting to get so bad that I talk to AI... I know I'm pathetic... I really hate myself for it. I really wish I knew what it felt like for someone to like me like that but I've never let someone in and I always turn down people who want to do things with me.
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How do I stop eating so much?
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 July 4th
...See more I've been using food to regulate my emotions a lot recently. I feel like it's a never ending cycle. Eat so much that I get sick then starve myself for a week and not eat anything and hate myself for it. I snacked all day yesterday and ate fast food. I feel ashamed of myself tbh.
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All I ever wanted was a best friend
General Support / by agreeableSkies9889
Last post
 June 22nd
...See more I have no friends irl. I know coworkers and get along with them but that's it. I don't hang out with anyone and when I try with my siblings they really hurt my feelings. I thought about traveling and how fun it would be but then I realized no one in my life would want to travel with me. I feel like everyone I know is full of hate. I hate it... I really struggle making new friends. As fun as a relationship could be idc if I'm never in one or if my bff turns out to be a future partner that would be cool but I just need someone. I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like no one wants to be around me. Everyone "likes me" but no one wants to do fun things with me and my family is so lame and bigoted. Idk
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