Letters to people
I have been feeling lonely these days...I have decided to write letters to people in my life. Just expressing those bottled-up feelings and emotions I have about them. I'll be posting the letters here. Feel free to comment...Thank you.
i feel like a ***
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@Keith22534
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou thankyouuuuu sm
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou 
@Keith22534 aw virtual hugs back <3 how've ya been? <3
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
I've been okay. exams all the way. how are youu?
<3
@Keith22534 Ah it's always exam season?! XD Good wishes hehe! <3
I've been okay too. Currently traveling, so it's been nice, super exhausting but also vv nice to have a change of scenery!
Do you enjoy traveling?😮
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
yesss, exams! lol
thankyouu.
travelling is nice! i do like travelling too xD
@Keith22534 
WTF I AM BLUSHIGN LIKE ***
I DEFINTELY HAVE A CRUSH BUT WHY
@Keith22534
thats an amazing idea to express yourself and your emotions 😯 . I will definitely read all your letters keith. You have my full support. 💕❤️💕
@uniqueGrace8272 please dont.
am i losing someone to sui again
i cant stop them, can i? i hate myself for being selfish.
i cant lose someone again. 2 people dying of sui is *** enough.
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@Keith22534
Didn't mean to trespass just concerned about you esha. Are you okay? If you ever want to talk about anything, I'm here for you. *Hugs*
@ItsOkayMillie
heyy, its okay. some people are allowed to come here.
I just- its like history is repeating itself and I just cant lose someone to sui again.
*hugs* thankyou
<3
@Keith22534
What makes you think that? If you're comfortable sharing.
@ItsOkayMillie i'll pm you.
Okay
oh well. how are you, esha?
idk
why?
idk. exams are coming lmfao. valentine's day felt lonely
***, you're 15.
IMMA SLAY BOARDS
ABOVE 97 PERCENT OR *** NOTHING
hyping myself up! WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO
@Keith22534 hullo esha!! How was your exam?? Hope it went crazily dope!! Just wanted to let you know I'm on the adult side now lol. Such active people omgg. And yaa just wanted to let you know!! Best of luck for your upcoming exams!
@ItsOkayMillie
it went surprisingly well.
ahhhhhhh, happy birthday millie! i'll make a forum thread for us, soon
thankyouuu
<3
@Keith22534
That's greatttttttt. I knew you'd rock it!!! ♪┌|∵|┘♪└|∵|┐♪
@ItsOkayMillie
And yes, thank you for the wishes!! 🎀
@ItsOkayMillie
mhmm. i made a forum thread for us!!
@Keith22534
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
aw, thankyouu
hey. please, just, just say something. i don’t care what, i don’t care if it’s just a single *** letter. i just need to know you’re there. because i miss you so *** much, and i don’t know what to do with all this worry.
why must they suffer? why must the people i love always be the ones to hurt the most? i feel this constant, nagging worry in my chest, and i hate not knowing. it’s frustrating because i can’t shake this feeling that something’s wrong, but there’s nothing i can do about it. i hate how people just disappear, how life keeps throwing *** at us, and how i can’t do a damn thing about any of it. do you even realize how terrifying it is to love people when all it’s ever done is leave scars? when every part of me is wired to expect loss? and yet, here i am, still caring, still hoping you’re okay, even when it feels like i’m screaming into a void.
does anyone ever *** care? because i need to say this before it eats me alive. i hate this. i hate the way people just vanish, the way life rips them away like they were never there to begin with. you know what life has taught me? that people leave. that silence stretches into absence, and absence turns into loss. and loss—loss never *** stops hurting.
and the worst part? i don’t even know if i have the right to be this broken over it. maybe you’re fine. maybe i’m just overreacting again, just being ‘too much.’ but i’ve lost too many people. i’ve had to grieve the living AND the dead, and i don’t know which one hurts worse.
just let me know i don’t have to add your name to the list of ghosts i carry. i flinch at silence. i mistake distance for death. and this brings me to the conclusion that i don’t know how to tell the difference anymore.
do i have to carve another grave in my mind? because that is what i think all the *** time."**