Mom?? Dad?? Was all of that really necessary??

When I was still a kid, my mom would take her anger out on me. It really hurts because I could always hear her talking bad about me to the neighbors and to our relatives and each time they'd just agree like my feelings don't matter at all. And on top of that my dad would also call me "crazy" "dumb" and all the stuff you could emagine. I couldn't really laugh freely at home because apparently laughing to loud is being a ***, so I stopped laughing at home. She called me a ***, a *** by just walking, laughing, making small mistakes, or simply playing like a kid when I WAS LITERALLY A KID. In this household standing out for yourself is apparently disrespectful so all I could do is endure it all. Mom? Dad? Was that really necessary?

When I was a kid, I always have had dandruff. As a kid, I would try to get rid of it because my parents said that it was disgusting. They thought I wasn't trying well guess what, I am. I can estimate my age around 6 or 7 when this happened. My parents dragged me into the shower and poured water on me before purposefully putting shampoo on my scalp and scrubbing the h3ll out of it. It hurt, it really hurt. As they were doing it they also said hurtful things that made me think I was disgusting. Their words cut me like it was the sharpest knife on earth. They poured shampoo on my hair 2 times and scrubb it like a cloth believing it'll remove my dandruff. I was a kid what else could I do? I cried thinking I was disgusting and I deserved it for not trying hard enough... I cried and cried as they continued scrubbing my scalf hard. Mom? Dad? Was that really necessary?

When I was like 3 or 4 something I got into a small argument with my mom. My mon hit me with her hands and with a hanger. God only knows how many hangers have broken in the past years. My mom told my dad what happened and then my dad got mad. He scolded me more while I was already crying for the previous argument I had with my mom. He grabbed me and brought me outside where there was many people. I can only guess that he got annoyed because I wouldn't stop crying. With no words he left me there Infront of the people crying and crying. I felt hurt, embarrassed and humiliated. After a few minutes he came back and picked me up like nothing happened at all. Like he didn't just humiliate me Infront of others. Mom? Dad? Was that really necessary?

This one happend like a year ago or 2 years ago I am not sure. Me and my little brother got into a small argument because he wouldn't behave snd we were in a family gathering. I accidentally pinched my brother out of anger. He told my dad ang my mom and my dad slapped me Infront of everyone. There it was again I was crying.. crying and crying... My relatives didn't care and agreed with my father. Eventually they called me down for dinner. The whole family was there staring at me looking like a mess. I was still crying. My mom was scolding my brother for giving her a hard time and she pinched my brother. I told her why would she do that? I got punished for it so it's wrong? Right? She slapped me. HARD. I was shocked. Infront of the relatives again? Like I wasn't already crying? My relatives joined in and told my parents that I should have been hit more. When will they be satisfied? Something similar also happened before this. I had bought some biscuits for myself but when I arrived home my mom suddenly slapped me again Infront of my cousin because I didn't buy one for my brother and he was crying. I didn't even know he wanted a biscuit. My mom never told me to buy a biscuit for my brother? How come she'd slap me like that for her own mistake? When will they be satisfied? Haven't I suffered enough? Mom? Dad? Was that really necessary?

Every birthday, every family gathering. It seems like it was meant to hurt me or criticize me for the small things I do. Can't I breathe in peace? Can they really not see how tired I am? Will they ever stop?

Back when I was still a kid we went to my moms province. My aunt and her kids were going to an event that was hosted by the province It was just near. Me and my aunt asked my mom If I could go with them. Obviously I was very excited because there were a lot of activities. I begged my mom and she got really mad. She scratched me and bit me. Her scratch caused the back of my neck to sting a hurt. She had scratched me and actually hurt me. My aunt was horrified and immediately took me with her in the event. She was shocked to see it.. she was like "why the flock would she do that?" And I said "but she always does it", leaving my aunt more horrified. Mom? Was that really necessary?

I can't type all of my experience here because It would take me YEARS. But.. Mom? dad? Can you see I'm tired? Mom? Dad? Can you really not tell. Mom?? Dad?? Was all of that really necessary???