Pain

I have been in pain for months now, with no clear reason. I have had horrible digestive issues and health in general for years, and it seems like it only ever gets worse. I have gone to the doctor's countless times, and I am always left untreated. I only get prescribed more medicine, and medicine does not cure it entirely, and only temporarily. The pain became so bad that I tried to stop it entirely– I was tired of living with such pain. This caused more excruciating pain, and it did not work. Since then, weeks later, I have still been in pain. Though, I am not longer involuntarily throwing up against my will– only sometimes. But, there is never a time where I am not in pain. It hurts horribly; It's as if I have to endure such pain and all I can do Is hope, and unfortunately, hope has left me a while ago. I cry often because of it. I feel weaker than ever. I constantly space out when doing things because the pain overpowers my brain, and all I can focus on is the hurting and ache within. I've noticed that the people around me aren't the happiest when I mention that I'm in pain– because they care– but I wish they'd comfort me just once, and tell me that they're there for me. They say they don't like seeing me in pain and that I need to be treated, but I have tried... I truly want to give up. I don't want to cause more worry to the people around me, and I have tried to stop complaining about it, but even when you stop mentioning something, it doesn't vanish; It stays. I wish it would stop just for a day; I wish it would stop entirely, but I have been wishing for months, and not one wish has come true.