Sh vent
First time posting in a community like this, but I need advice or maybe someone to see what I'm thinking ***, I don't really know anyways I'm a teen struggling with feelings and what not and today I thought about doing self harm, the thing is that I never done it before so I don't really know why I gave so much thought today, its not like I want to do it cause I know its bad so why am I thinking about it, I thought about it before briefly, but these thoughts are getting worse and I don't want them to turn into actions, I just want to know why I'm so fixated on it, I even tried looking for the exacto knife my mom had to see if it was there, and thought about how, and when, and so many problems I would run into, like how someone would notice eventually because I have people that care, if I were to do it, the more I think about, the more selfish I think I am, because it's so selfish to act on my feelings like this, then I would worry others and stuff, or maybe I deserve it... At this point idfk and idc, anyways that's the end of the rant, and I'm going to bed cause I have school trmw unfortunately
@bobaTeaa1234
I'm glad you came here to open up.
That's very brave of you.
Welcome!
It's important to talk and allow yourself the time to process your feelings and find healthy and safe coping mechanisms to allow you to feel good about yourself and never put yourself in any danger 💖
@bobaTeaa1234
The thought of sh is very big especially when it hasn't been acted upon. It's hard to even going back to thinking normally when the reasons or the feeling of doing it is out weighing all the other reason to not do it. Start by distracting yourself when those thoughts come either think what youre going to do thru out the day or a hobby the more you stop thinking of it the feelings would fade and when the time comes where you aren't able to distract yourself be open talk about it as to why you feel this way but stating that you deserve this or your selfish are untrue those are thoughts that should be blocked in no way do you deserve pain inflicted on you. You could also note down when you start to have these thoughts and write them down to see what initiates/triggers this. Still you are already getting better by being able to open up about this and I pray that these thoughts can go away quickly because you do not deserve to go through this.
@bobaTeaa1234
You're not selfish. The thought of self harm is so heavy. I know that I can't imagine your pain, and all the thoughts and events you have gone through. I'm sorry for all the pain you have to carry💗💗💗💗 I hug you tightly🫂🫂🫂
I had done self harm about 2 years ago. And I really do hope this never happens for you. But anytime anyway, with anything happened or not happened, you can talk, you can talk with someone here on cups, or we can talk I will always listen. I send you my hugs and best wishes🫂🫂🫂🫂🩵🩵🩵
I am in the exact same situation. Wanna talk ?
