š· āSmiling, but strugglingā¦ā š¤
Ā id love to hear your guys thoughts and vents. please know this is a safe place to let things out.Ā
Ā āLately Iāve been pretending Iām okay, butā¦ā
Please also note that my pms are open to anyone that needs a chat. you donāt have to struggle alone.Ā
Much love,
lex š«¶
@LexListens2025
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@LexListens2025
I'm good, learning to prioritise myself and finding what it is that I like to do, outside of caring and being there for others and learning I took deserve to be asked , how I'm doing and not just focus on other people's needs š©µš¤
@Amanda84 hello, im on the same boat as you ive been learning to value my own needs i spent a great deal of my younger years worrying and caring for others. When it came to me I was disregard as if my emotions or my burdens didnt matter,Ā no one ever took the time to see me. Sometimes I just wanted to be heard too
@LexListens2025 Iāve been struggling for years and Iāve become numb. So many things Iām holding on to except talking with my counselor outside of this site. Things I canāt believe I put up with along with the fact that I still care for them. Self esteem and confidence is out the window but I manage to keep waking up. I donāt know what to do anymore.
@Foreverblu56
Iām really glad you shared this š¤ that takes a lot of courage.
It sounds really heavyāfeeling numb, holding onto so much, and still caring about people whoāve hurt you š That kind of mix of emotions can be exhausting, especially when your self-esteem feels worn down.
But I want to gently point out something šæ youāre still here, still waking up each day. That matters more than it might feel right now š
Iām really glad you have your counselor too š¤ you deserve safe spaces to talk and not carry this alone. And feeling numb doesnāt mean youāre brokenāit can be your mind trying to protect you š«§
You donāt have to figure everything out right now. Even just getting through the day is enough š±
If you feel okay sharing, whatās been the heaviest thing on your mind lately? š
@LexListens2025 My marriage. It all stems from that and the last 30 years itās been an internal ***. Iāve expressed my feelings to her but it always ends in her favor. Iām too nice and forgiving and it will torture me every day until I parish. My family has been absent and I do avoid them because of a lot of things. So everything that has gone wrong is heavy all at once and Iām lonely because of it. Donāt feel sorry for myself, I just wish I could start my life over.
@Foreverblu56 looking at your profile is refreshing but it I better find ann another listener. I feel better talking to women respectfully in my case, itās just more comforting to me. So thank you for your time.Ā
@Foreverblu56 itās just the topics you donāt want to explore. Thanks again.
@ButtercupDaisy
i donāt see a message. š¤
@LexListens2025
but.... it's just so frustrating that health related issues are surfacing one at a time, and rest is equally impacted. really don't see how this is. supposed make me feel better š«
@Jeremiah29v11
That sounds really frustrating šš« dealing with one health thing after another can feel never-ending, especially when it starts affecting your rest too š
It makes sense that itās not making you feel betterāanyone would feel worn down by that. When your body isnāt cooperating, it can feel like you donāt even get a break, even when youāre trying to rest šš
Youāre allowed to feel upset and tired of it all š¤ this isnāt something small youāre dealing with.
If you feel up to sharing, whatās been impacting your rest the most lately? š¬
@LexListens2025
kinda wish i knew, it has somewhat improved but i don't feel that much better unfortunatelyĀ
@LexListens2025 I love how you create places to safely vent or let things out āŗļøšø
The last few days Iāve been pretending Iām okay, but I was actually afraid to open up to my parents because they seem pretty exhausted from work lately and I didnāt want to add worries on top š Yesterday a friend who lives in another city visited me (and stayed till today) and I finally got to experience true happiness again š¤ I forgot that laughter could feel so real. Now Iām hopeful that things might get better šš„³
Anyways, hope everyone has a nice day/night or whatever time it is š
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@Butterfly723389
Aww this is so lovely to read š„¹š thank you for sharing this with us šøāØ
It sounds like youāve been carrying a lot quietly, especially trying to protect your parents by not adding to their stress š that shows how thoughtful and caring you are š¤ but you deserve support tooāyou donāt have to hold everything in on your own š«¶
Iām really happy you got to experience that moment with your friend š„³š¤ sometimes those genuine laughs remind us that happiness is still there, even if it feels far away at times š The fact that it gave you hope again is so special š«
And that hope youāre feeling right now? Hold onto it gently š¼ it doesnāt mean everything is suddenly fixed, but itĀ doesmean things can shift, even in small ways.
Thank you for spreading such kind energy here too š š I hope you continue to have more moments that feel real and joyful like that š¤āØ
@LexListens2025 Yes, this hope is so precious n Iām grateful for it āļøš but it also feels way too fragile. I am holding onto that hope, but Iām always scared that it might fade away so quickly š
Still, right now itās fine. Iāve got some things to look forward to š š„³
Thank you for all your kindness š¤šøš
Wishing u the best too šš
*t.w*
I feel a bit shaken up rn cuz of my mom and dad's abusive arguments.
@fossilfellow
Sorry to hear this š©µ
@Amanda84 thank you š
@fossilfellow
Iām really sorry youāre going through that right now šš hearing your parents argue, especially when itās abusive, can feel really scary and unsettling.
It makes sense you feel shakenāyour body is reacting to something intense and overwhelming š«¶ youāre not overreacting at all.
If you can, try to focus on your immediate safety first š¤ maybe go to a quieter space, put on headphones, or step outside if thatās possibleāanything that helps you feel a bit more grounded and away from it šæ
You donāt have to hold this alone. Iām here with you. š¤
@LexListens2025 I'm safe rn, thank you ā¤ļøā¤ļø
Lately I've been pretending I'm ok, but I am not. The days blur into each other. I have come to peace with myself inside but my environment is a hammer to that fragile glass of peace. I cry randomly and a lot.
@awesomeOcean1430
Iām really glad you shared this š¤
It sounds like youāve done a lot of inner work to find some peace within yourselfā¦ but your environment keeps disrupting that, and thatās incredibly hard š like you finally built something gentle and it keeps getting shaken.
The days blurring together and crying a lotāit makes sense when youāre carrying that much and donāt feel fully safe or supported around you š«§ youāre not ātoo muchā for feeling this way.
That fragile peace you mentioned šæ it still matters. Even if it feels like itās being hit over and over, it means thereās a part of you thatās still trying to heal and hold on š
You donāt have to go through this alone. Iām here to listen š«¶
If you feel okay sharing, what about your environment feels the most overwhelming right now? š
@LexListens2025 Thank you so much! Your words mean a lot. I think the worst part is the constant pressure to study. It used to be there internally too, I used to force myself to study but over time I realised recently that I just can't do it, and that a small break is Ok, but my parents don't try to understand. Its not their fault they see it through the lens of a parent and just want me to go to a good university but I just can't study.
@LexListens2025 If I had a penny for every time I said, "fine"...