***TW*** Random Triggering Things
I’ve found that random things will trigger me… I haven’t figured out why.
Some video games, or video game sounds, from my childhood trigger me, but others don’t.
Certain sounds do. Similar ones don’t.
I reject most memories from my past and choose to forget them… While still having a few fond memories from my recent past.
I can watch certain things from my childhood, but not others.
And so forth.
Maybe it has to do with my dad. Or my stepdad. Maybe something bad happened. Maybe my brain associated certain things with them.
Maybe my PTSD is remembering something that I don’t.
I wish I could fix myself…
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm similar but I've worked out why I'm reacting strongly, it reminds me of something.
Some I can avoid, some I can't. At times I've written fiction about how I felt back then, some are tearjerkers but just because I buried it and played the pretend it didn't happen.
I didn't really acknowledge it, so didn't deal with it.
I assigned some blame to myself and withdrew from people.
It's a process to relive it but then confront it. I wasn't strong enough before, not sure I am now..
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