Venting

I'm losing control over my education again.

Today my mom told me my aunt called and said my uncle is now teaching at a coaching centre. She wants me to join his classes. My uncle doesn't charge us, so my mom immediately agreed.

The problem is that I've never felt comfortable with my uncle being my teacher. I always feel stressed, nervous, and hesitant around him and I don't learn well. I even told my mom that my cousin once told me not to study maths with their dad because they thought I deserved a better teacher.

My mom replied, "So what? Is your dad going to spend that much money on your education? Let them say whatever they want. You just need to study."

That really hurt.

It felt like she completely ignored what I was trying to say. I wasn't complaining about studying. I was trying to explain that I don't think this is the right learning environment for me.

Then she told me to ask my dad if he agreed, and if he did, I'd have to start going tomorrow.

I feel like everyone keeps making decisions about my education without asking how I feel. I know money is a problem but I wish someone would understand that I'm scared and uncomfortable instead of acting like my feelings don't matter.

I don't know... I just needed to get this off my chest.