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Hi everyone 😢
i feel like the biggest loser right now
Ive had a consistent struggle with getting to work.
I get that I had the toughest year of my entire life but this is STUPID!!!
At least once a week or every other week I’m calling out.
I have therapy a she’s not going to be happy with me. I’m not happy with me. I woke up so tired and feeling like a wet rag this morning. Now it’s afternoon and I’m working in my thoughts.
Idk understand what I’m doing wrong or gore to fix it???!!!?
I’m so frustrated 😩 I’m an adult, I’ve worked full time before. I feel like I’m going throw up.
@peachThinker662
First of all, absolutely get that out of your head, you are not useless at all 🩷
You've been through so much.
Don't underestimate that.
Your therapist will understand.
Readjusting takes time, and you are a wonderful person.
But not useless at all.
It takes one day at a time 🩷
Be gentle with yourself 🩷💛💖💕🧡💜💜💚🩵
@Amanda84
therapy visit went good 🩵
just my own self doubts.
for some reason failure & loser are the first words that pop in my brain when I struggle
readjusting is the pits
this has been a struggle
one day at a time but I want It now!! This is what it reminded me of as I typed it. I want to golden egg!!!
🩷🩷 my inner child needs love. I’ve got to start giving it. Be humble, be kind. To me.
@peachThinker662
I'm glad it went well 🩷
Yes.
Love you.
Be kind.
Be gentle.
Be patient.
Be you.
I want you to see what I see in you.
Humility.
Strength.
Fierceness.
Kindness.
Beauty.
Down to earth.
Real.
You are a diamond 🩷
@peachThinker662 It can be really frustrating when it's like our bodies and minds are working against us.
@mytwistedsoul
i did exactly that.
I’m exhausted of myself —really trying to be gentle 😩
Whatever I’m doing isn’t working. I need new material.
@peachThinker662 (offers safe hugs) I hope you find what you need. You definitely deserve a break and to have things go well ❤️
@peachThinker662
I understand where you are at and if I relate it to myself it sounds like you're depressed. I had a very rough year last year with the loss of my mom and two pets and a change of responsibilities in my household that put most of the burden on me. It's just over a year and I am slowly finding my back to feeling like myself with this new normal. I have the benefit of being older and not working right now and I know how hard it can be to be at work when you feel this way cause I've been there too. You're human do the best you can, take small steps, you'll find your way back.
@bindugirl
hopefully I’m almost there!!! it’s been a year this month since everything changed
sending you good vibes!!!
@peachThinker662 You're doing nothing wrong 💗 Look at you already working on it and trying your absolute best. This is taking way more strength cause you're healing, you're doing it even after all the struggles you've faced. The past and the future you would be proud.
Some flowers for this present you who is a survivor and a fighter.
@BlueDarkAurora
aww I love this 🩷🩷🩷
thank you for being so supportive. I love flowers. I just bought myself some yesterday. Trying to brighten up my day when I need it. 🥹
others don’t see the inner struggle ie. my boss, and I don’t want to advertise. Because I want good. I want To succeed.
@peachThinker662 That's lovely 💗🌷
I know it hurts when people don't understand, when they brush away something that's affecting you so much. And sometimes we can't change how they see things.
But we hold on to ourself with love and care, hold on to this belief, this potential we know we have. Someday soon you'll be this person that you want to be, you'll have all that makes you happy. And people will look back and be amazed at how you did it 💖
@BlueDarkAurora
i read this probably 5x ❤️❤️❤️
thank you so much. You are a sweetheart.
@peachThinker662 💖💖💖
@peachThinker662
I never ever want you to call yourself a loser 🩷
@Amanda84
🩷❤️ I’ll try my best
@peachThinker662
You'll have to answer to me, and I'm scary 😂🩷
@Amanda84
only if you post a panda 🐼 😂😂😂😂😂😂
Remember you are amazing
@peachThinker662
You are a far cry from being a loser. Please try not tp be so hard on yourself. This last year has taken a toll on your physical emotional and mental health. You are one of the strongest and most brave persons I have met. Allow yourself to take one day at a time. Be patient with yourself. I hope and pray for your healing.
@sabeyesofblue3535
thank you love. They’re just old pattern words that keep coming through 😢 and when they do, they’re strong.
I need to be stronger than them. 🩷
I don't know how this app works
@peachThinker662
Hey! Some things are just out of our control. I'm sorry that you feel so consistently down and unmotivated to work and I hope that you're able to figure out if there is an actual cause thats leading to this behavior or not. Nothing is worse than wanting to do something but later holding yourself back because your mindset isn't acting as it should be. It sounds like you hold a lot of expectations on yourself though and maybe you've entered a cycle where you'll continue to degrade yourself because you are blaming your behavior while convincing yourself to do better? Either way, I hope you manage to find a healthier way to cope with this, I believe that you'll find a way because there is almost always a way! Even if it seems impossible, you are certainly going to overcome and find that motivation. For now, enjoy your small wins!
@peachThinker662 sending you hugs and support. Is there anything you could try to make getting to work easier that would work for you?
@sadcat13
I’m trying to figure out a plan.
My body likes to send hunger signals as danger right now.
Plus, just waking up in it self is a challenge.
So, It’s a matter of eating, waking up, and convincing myself I’m ok and do it. It just doesn’t work all the time.
I’ve got to figure out how to not wake up in a panic…
@peachThinker662 that sounds very hard to deal with every single day. Do you have a way to get put on a sick leave for a week for the worst energy low to pass?
@sadcat13
unfortunately, this has been going on for a few months.
We tried a sick leave, it was denied.
I now am at a new job and I haven’t worked enough hours this year with my surgery time off.
@peachThinker662 I see. Do you have a favourite snack?
@sadcat13
lots of favorites 😋
@peachThinker662 would taking your current absolute fav to work help? Like. No more of that snack at home when in this sturggling phase. It would be one you only get to have at work. Would it help? Because for example I'm very food motivated and the amount of times the difference between I will or won't go to school depended on what's for lunch 😂
@sadcat13
i packed a big bag of snacks today!!!
@peachThinker662 perfect! Try leaving it at work and see if it motivates you the next day at least a little. May not work long term, but hey. Any day it gets you out is better then none
@sadcat13
Oooh that’s a good idea!!!
@peachThinker662 even if it works just for a few days, it´s still a few days of lessening the struggle. At least i am personally so food motivated I would be willing to work all day for nothing but a tasty meal if i know what it is and that it is good 😂
@sadcat13
right?! motivation and something to break the “I can’t do it cycle”
maybe we share the food brain cell 😂😂
i don’t do well when I’m hungry, hanger is real
@peachThinker662 well. You can have your turn with the brain cell today, I'm going to work in the morning anyway 😁