⛰ clovers isolation cabin on a cliff side ⛰
not exactly sure what i'm going to use this for, so beware any cliff side hikers who happen to be hiking near the edge of the cliff
most likely vents, appreciations cause you guys are amazing, art if i ever make any again, and writing if i ever continue
trigger warning to anyone who might pass by, and i most likely will forget to put individual trigger warnings, as this is my safe place, so if you are triggered, just leave.
tagging anyone who might care in the slightest to read what i have to say:
@OliveTree1728 @Nomifordays @ALeXaNdEr0712
idk why tf people don't *** notice how damn bad im struggling
they dont notice signs im trying to *** put out all the damn time
im always pulling my socks up so they don't show my sh covered legs and nobody *** notices it they dont blink an eye
they dont notice the *** cuts everywhere they literally dont say anything about them
i just want someone to notice so so damn bad
i want someone to care
the closest ive gotten is my parents making *** assumptions about me
and now they want me taking meds
without even asking whats up with me they just "sense" somehings off and they want me to "get better" so woo now they're taking me to a doc to get *** meds
daily dose of peppa.
https://streamable.com/wq8aqc
im a *** mess. idek whats happening to me atp but im falling back to how i was and ive only been back for 3 *** weeks. not even that. [tw] i cant even go 2 days without cutting anymore and i dont know what the *** happened. almost 7 weeks clean, almost 50 days clean and i *** screwed it up. i thought camp would make me a different person and i would be able to bring that version of me back to my real life but i *** lost it. i lost th egood, happy, clean, talkatuve, loud, the overall better version of me. 3 *** days is all it took to drain all the good out of me. i wish i could rewind and replay camp over and over and over and never have to face the *** of real life anymore. its so *** draining.
im exhausted.
im so *** exhausted
@mysteriousClover
Hi clover 💜
I know things aren't easy right now 🙏 *sending hugs and love if okay* 🥺 I know your tired and I hope you get some beauty rest 🌈❤️ me proud of you for being strong and here 💜😭 thank you for always being here for me and I'm so glad I met you 🌈🥺 always here for chu!
@amiableBunny4016
tysm bun bun, here for you too <3
love youu <3
i love you.
with all of my whole heart, i love all of you.
sunsets shining pink and orange,
lighting up the night sky.
why must you be so far away?
sand between my fingers and barefoot on the sand,
sitting,
watching,
quietly.
why must you be so far away?
once a year for one measly session of 3 weeks,
i am met with a mindset found nowhere else inside,
bringing out my own self,
at my very best,
all the time.
why must you be so far away?
long beach talks late at night,
laughing and crying,
talking as if there would be no tomorrow.
leaning on others whilst falling apart,
long hugs,
wishing they could last forever.
why must you be so far away?
i love you.
magnificent camp on the lake,
thank you for saving me.
hate the blue but the point stands