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do you ever just randomly remember how terribly alone and messed up and pathetic you really are.... this is why I dont like thinking lmao..... its why I prefer numb over feeling ..its all fine till you let yourself think or feel or do any of that humanly stuff ... mann...i wanna be a tree or a chair or idk anything but human 😔😔😔😔😔 its just not working for me ... tired of it already ...
let.myself to think for less than a minute and it all cames crashing down... the false sense of delusion of being ok came off ....
....yeah I lied or masked or whatever it is that fits here .....I'm not fine... I'm nowhere near fine ....I was never fine... I don't rm3mebrr what fine even means anymore ... idk and i guess I dont even care .... but it hurts rn ... too much... and idk what to do ... 😔 so very not ok ...
@Optimisticempath Hiiii my sweet friend. I can relate all to well about not being so fond of having time to think. They don't say "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." for no reason. I'm so sorry you are struggling right now, Opti. But I wouldn't want you as anything other than who you are now. I think you are pretty great considering! Sending you a great big hug and smile. Xoxo. ♡
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🥺🥺 awww your always so kind Desiree thank you so much 💕 devils working so well in their workshop 💀 they didn't even take an off for the holidays...like?!?! working over time xD
Thanks for another cute gift 🥰 I have a folder I'm saving all these into , your the besttt 🥺 hugs back tighttt💕💕💕💕
@Optimisticempath I have a folder on my phone I save all 7 Cups gifts too. Lol. ♡ I will keep you in my prayers, sweet Opti! Trust and believe.
@YourCaringConfidant we do need that folder sometimes 🤗🥰💕💕 
@Optimisticempath your soul is what you truly are and as far as I know @_@ souls can shapeshift right.... Sooo you can be a chair or tree or anything you like But let me tell you one thing -_- you will be the best, most kindness and the strongest tree or chair that I've ever come across.
Fake it till you make it ehh? I guess we all do that, pretend to be fine a little too hard and that's where it all comes crashing down. I was sad today and the past few days I tried so hard to pretend to be fine but today I was like 'you know what..I'm sad and so I'm gonna go cry to Taylor Swift " xD and that took away all the pressure that I was putting on myself. Now I'm back to pretending.. is it better yet? No but is it easier now? Yes :)
It's okay to not be fine!! You're only human and this being human thing is HARD! Allow yourself to cry, feel angry, grieve. Let it ALL out. It's hard work keeping ourselves safe and sane, and at times that strength begins to dwindle and the dark thoughts and heavy emotions come and that's our sign that we need REST and to stop working so hard to keep it together. Sometimes surrendering and breaking down is exactly what is needed to regain energy and clarity. Just take it easy on yourself and take care of yourself the way you would take care of a friend in a similar situation. You're doing great. Sending lots of love! <3
@ptsdsupport 🥺 this means a lot to me 💕 it's so hard to do anything.. or be kind to self or treat me like friend.. but sounds so so nice to be able to do all that someday :( thank you for your kindness and support 💕 this was very comforting to hear!