lost and confused; tw grooming mention
So i'm very new here and i don't know how to post on forum but whatever.
I'm 16 and i've been obsessed with grooming themes for almost half a year now. It's come far enough for me to start sexually talking to adults online and to sexualise myself to the point of me just dreaming that if i act or dress sexually enough some adult guys would hit on me irl.
There's much more to it, but in general it's not that bad.
I feel like there's no place for me to share this, because my problem is too bad for your general vent spaces and yet i'm not nearly a grooming or SA victim for me to vent on the survivor hotlines(which i already kinda tried to do).
I don't know.. i'm just really confused with all that and i don't know where to search for help.
@resourcefulLand9620
Well everybody has different tastes.. Your interests don't align with convention. I think you may have beliefs that may be false or you may have been groomed yourself by your environment.. I hope you can focus on the realities of indulging in the taboo.. Good luck on your future..🌲
@resourcefulLand9620 just wanted to let u know u can be a victim even if u “asked for it”. please understand where ur need to be groomed comes from and heal! I hope u know ur not alone and u don’t have to be ashamed🩷
@resourcefulLand9620
Hey 🤍 I'm 18 and Ive done this in the past, around your age, and ive seen other girls around this age do it too. Something about a need for external validation, maybe. Or a need to feel in someone else's control, while still holding the power to end the interaction. Or— well the reason could be anything. Maybe pause and think it over.
I'll recommend you a site— nofap. It has forums, including for teens. Deals with porn addiction etc but you absolutely can discuss this there (tip: dont mention your real name or details there either. Keep it anonymous!)
Beyond that, youre still welcome to talk about it on cups with listeners who are comfortable with it. Im not sure about how much forums will allow you to discuss here
Reminder: you are not a bad person for this and this does not define you. And hey, good on you for reaching out, yeah?
Best wishes 🤍