your life without me

I cant... I cant even take a break properly. Im just a huge mess. I just ruined my life. People in my family tell me to go d1e and then emotionally abuse me. At school its just another flipping nightmare, Sometimes I wish I could just do something properly. I wish I could just not make a fuss out of my life. I wish people never wished I would d1e. I wish I was loved. But no... i cant do anything. im hopeless

im done.

Ok

@amiableBunny4016,

( Bunny, this message has few things i wanted to mention before , I didn't know if this was the right time or place. Or if I know you enough to tell you this. I don't know it now either. I am ever sooo sorry if it's offending or making you uncomfortable. You can defenetly flag this post , and I believe me , I will understand. Why am I posting this now? Because a few things you mentioned in this thread promoted me to say/ types it)

Bunny , it's disheartening to hear people say that it was better if we could go and die. It extinguishes almost every attempts to try for a while. I understand how much it hurts. Irrespective of what we do wrong, no one and I mean no one , deserves to hear those words. You as well as I know that you don't deserve it. But it's hard to believe or accept it a few times . There is no doubt that you are in yourself a wonderful support system for many of our cup including me. That will get overwhelming at times though. Completely understandable. We all get to spread some light here. However there is no denying that all of us have our own share of mistakes and guilt baggages . Some are bigger than the others. None of us are aware of what the other person did. None of us have very clear understanding about what another person went through. We all make plenty of mistakes . And each of us have our own reasons to do what we did. Not all our deeds be good . That's alright. Your struggle makes you stronger ( in a painfull way ofc) and your mistakes make you conscious and knowledgeable. ( In a painfull way again. ) I know it sucks. I know it's a struggle to live with it . I know it's hurting you. Just know that what you did only has a tiny say in who you are. You are a smile spreader. You have got your share of mistakes. All these are parts of your personality. Some are dim, some are really bright . That makes all of us. Darker parts aren't easy to live with . But It doesn't define you completely. It is a part of you. Not you as a whole person. It's okay if you regret or be ashamed of what you may have done wrong . We all have those feelings with regards to certain aspects of life. But never regret the person you have become. Never be ashamed of you as a person.

Breaks can be super productive. You can take it whenever you wish , for how much ever short or long period you want to. We will definitely miss your amazing presence here. But we will also be happy that you are working something through. If you wish to come back the next second after you leave? We all will receive you with open arms and happy smiles. It doesn't mean you are making things messy. All of us do what we want to. If you want to be here. You should be here. If you wish to continue your break after a quick comeback, thats also very fine. If you wish to take your break without breaks ( didn't know how to put that more sensibly) , do it. If you wish to make any changes in your decisions , do it. It doesn't make you messy. Nope , it makes you human.

Senting lots of love courage , strength, hugs

Silver

@amiableBunny4016 i may not know you very well, but all you have ever been is nice an uplifting to everyone, so know that.

@amiableBunny4016

Life without bunny????? 😱😱😱😱

Sounds very deep and dark and coooollllddd! 🥶 🧊 ☃️

-Otter