Don't know what to do with my life.

Hello, my name is Joe and I am 28 years old. I am extremely introverted. I have severe social problems, and I also have severe depression. Because of my problems I have never had a job, girlfriend, or friends. I am at home all day, and I do the same things everyday. I never change. I really would like help with these problems, but I never do anything to get help. I have a hard time asking people for help. I have never talked to a doctor/therapist about my problems; I can't afford to go to the doctor. I wish the people in my life would just ask me if I need help with anything, but they never do. My mom and me have been having trouble with our landlord lately; I think he is going to raise our rent. My mom pays $550 currently for rent. I think the landlord wants to raise it to $1000-1500. We might have to move, but there are no cheap places we can afford. Numerous times in the past I have also considered committing suicide.

I always look for articles on the internet for help with things, but I never actually do what any of them suggest. I just read them and don't take any of their advice. I feel like I have no energy to do anything. I wish someone would just come into my life and help me. I desperately need mental help, financial help, and help getting a job. I don't feel like I can do anything on my own. I just feel so lifeless. I am lonely all the time. I feel like dying. I feel worthless. I feel like I can never change.

People on this site have even given me suggestions on things to do in the past. I have gotten suggestions about free healthcare and cheap housing. I just never do anything with their advice. I feel like I need more than just a bunch of words on my computer screen to change my life. I just feel like talking to people on the internet has no effect on me; I feel like I need more extreme help.

I have been very depressed the past couple days. I most likely will be considering suicide again in the next few days. Anytime I get extremely depressed I consider suicide. I just don't know what to do at all. I feel so helpless. I am just so tired of living this way. I constantly think about things in the past that I wish I had done. I daydream all the time; I fantasize about having a better life. I never do anything productive. I hate myself for being the way I am. I hate not being able to help my mom with bills. I hate not having money. I hate not having a lot of food to eat. I just hate everything about my life.

I am scared what will happen in the next few months. I don't know if my mom and me will move out, stay in our current house, or be homeless. I wish all these problems would just go away. I want to just go up to my bedroom, lock the door, get under my blanket, and just not have to deal with the world at all. I want everyone to just leave me alone. I want to seclude myself from the world, and not have to interact with anyone. I am not fit for this world.