P-T-S-Me
Hi, many don't know but I write songs, and I've adopted the pseudonym P-T-S-Me
I would like to share one of the songs I've written called Final Flight. TW for mention of a su*cide attempt and dr*g use. (I'm not in crisis, just sharing an experience I've had)
Intro: *heavy breathing, metal clanging, wind whooshing*
“Make it stop…. Make it stop..”
V1:
I was trying to help myself
Turned to prozac and… weed.
I still wanted to k*ll myself
I still wanted to …bleed
Pre-chorus:
These nights are getting colder
Standing out here alone
I hear the voices calling
Me.. to my… home
Chorus:
The stars out here
Burn so bright
To….night
My final flight
Still wondering why
Things can’t be right
To….night
My final flight
Post-chorus
Ooo..ooo..ooo
Ooo..ooo..ooo
My final flight
V2:
I stand here chilled by that… october rain
Hear the shaking of the trees
Still here wondering if I wanna.. Feel again
Standing atop the overpass and.. Freeze
Pre-chorus:
These nights are getting colder
Standing out here alone
I hear the voices calling
Me.. to my… home
Chorus:
The stars out here
Burn so bright
To….night
My final flight
Still wondering why
Things can’t be right
To….night
My final flight
Post-chorus
Ooo..ooo..ooo
Ooo..ooo..ooo
My final flight
Bridge:
I’m looking around, I still am trapped in this cage
My heart screaming and wild, filled with hate
I know that this place could be my.. private stage
Its quiet now, as I look at my watch and wait
(wait for what)
As I look at my watch and… wait..
Chorus:
The stars out here
Burn so bright
To….night
My final flight
Still wondering why
Things can’t be right
To….night
My final flight
My final flight
My final flight
Outro:
*sirens ringing*
@Callito421
Awww callito I love this song. Your a talented young writer. Really creates an image in my head. I'm so sorry about your experience. That seems really tough. Buddy, your so much stronger than you think and I'm so glad you shared the link with me. And I know sometimes in the cold it can feel lonely and dark.. but your here.. with us. And we are always here for u buddy. I love the way this is written and I can defo relate!
💜*Sending love and hugs if ok*
Bunny
@Callito421
After all you've been through you. Your a strong and you can do this buddy! Always here for u!
Bunny
I just finished my next song, For the best
TW for needl*s, bl*od
(bluesy, waltsy feeling, in ¾ time )
V1: Screaming, thrashing, wildly.
Panicked, breathing, fighting
The nurse is, speaking, mildly
Uncapped the needle, and brightened the LIGHTING
Chorus
She said Oooo darling…. Don’t fight me
Just lay your head down for rest
The needle pierced me ever so slightly
Honey, its for the, best
Your gonna be perfectly okay
Its not like its an experimental drug to test
My head was starting to sway
Post chorus:
Its for the best
Ooo oooo oooo
Ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo ooo
Honey… its for the best
V2
Woke up, dizzy, all tied down
My arm all, ***, and blue
That same, nurse came in, don’t make a sound
She then a-proached me, this *** is true!
Chorus
She said Oooo darling…. Don’t fight me
Just lay your head down for rest
The needle pierced me ever so slightly
Honey, its for the, best
Your gonna be perfectly okay
Its not like its an experimental drug to test
My head was starting to sway
Post chorus:
Its for the best
Ooo oooo oooo
Ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo ooo
Honey… its for the best
bridge
The blood… its.. leaving
How could I… be this… depressed
Praying I’m.. really.. Dreaming
Honey… its for the… best
Chorus
She said Oooo darling…. Don’t fight me
Just lay your head down for rest
The needle pierced me ever so slightly
Honey, its for the, best
Your gonna be perfectly okay
Its not like its an experimental drug to test
My head was starting to sway
Post chorus: (calmly, slowly, decrescendo)
Its for the best
Ooo oooo oooo
Ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo ooo
Honey… its for the best
Oh, also, I'm going to be posting just vocal covers for these too.
My next song is called Weight of the World
TW: Burnout, Su*c*de, alc*hol
Weight of the world
P-T-S-Me
Mmmm….mmmm..yeah x3
V1
I’ve walked all day and night
I’m exhausted with all this weight
I know that my therapist was right
Now I fear its too late
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Back to a better place
Wish everytime I said “yes” I had a dime
Just one look at their crying face
Pre- chorus
Oh, yes yes, let me do it for you
Oh, yes yes, I’m fine
Oh, yes yes, I would love to
Someone give me a sign
Chorus:
Sometimes I feel like I’m carrying the weight of the world
Forgetting myself for their benefit
Sometimes I wish I was stronger
Sometimes I wish I was their perfect girl
Sobbing about the days with my brain deficit
I can’t carry it for much longer
I’m falling over… (yeah)
All these painful memories scattered on the floor
The funny thing is that I’m no longer sober (yeah)
Honestly I know I should just walk out that door
But I can’t, motherf*** I know I’m useless
Sitting here crying without any meaning
Step aside motherf*** I need the juices
My liver don’t need no cleaning
Pre- chorus
Oh, yes yes, let me do it for you
Oh, yes yes, I’m fine
Oh, yes yes, I would love to
Someone give me a sign
Chorus:
Sometimes I feel like I’m carrying the weight of the world
Forgetting myself for their benefit
Sometimes I wish I was stronger
Sometimes I wish I was their perfect girl
Sobbing about the days with my brain deficit
I can’t carry it for much longer
Bridge:
And now I’m sitting here drunk and high as f***
Thinking about ending it, because nobody gives a damn
Still wishing that I had better luck
Honestly, I don’t even know who I am.
Chorus:
(Softly, fading away)
Sometimes I feel like I’m carrying the weight of the world
Forgetting myself for their benefit
Sometimes I wish I was stronger
(Main beat and melody)
Sometimes I wish I was their perfect girl
Sobbing about the days with my brain deficit
(whispered)
I can’t carry it for much longer
