I no longer enjoy birthdays:( || sharing my tangled thoughts
Birthday, it's like a day with a lot of pressure now, getting older but still immature. I was such a good student back then, though, got good scores, But now it's nothing to be proud of. It's sad how I thought if I got good grades and achievement in school, then my parents would reward me with family vacation that never happened.
I hate people, I even hate being around a kid.
I think of not getting married because I'm not ready. I'm very impatient around my niece. Also the thoughts about drama around relationship and marriage also make me feel scared; problems like affair and v!olence. I don't have the energy for all that. I must fix myself first before going for a committed relationship right? Well I'm still not mentally healthy :( I don't know when it will be
I'm an introvert who used to keep my feelings inside, but lately I have expressed my anger and felt bad about it. Maybe it's true how being sad for a long time can turn sadness into anger??
I'm worried that now I have anger issues, since I sometimes hit things when angry. I don't know what I'm feeling, can't get help. This site is my only way to talk about how I feel.
Need some people who accepted me the way I am without making joke of me being sad and anxious.
@hopefulencounter
It's not a joke to be sad or anxious 💚
Unresolved feelings can lead to anger so it's good to get it out and process it, but in a healthy manner.
You don't need to have your whole future decided or mapped out yet.
It's important to work on your own well being and feel better in yourself first 💛
@Amanda84 😭😭😭 you understand me so well, thank you! It's good to be heard like this :") thank you so much
@hopefulencounter
My pleasure 💙
@Amanda84 
@hopefulencounter I can relate. Birthdays bring anxiety for me.
@softglowandlight yes it's not fun anymore :"
i spent a lot of my time with books as a teenager, i studied hard and for what, now my friends are more successful than me. i always have low self esteem i hate myself, been trying to love but its so difficult
the affirmations arent helping , journaling makes me bored, i stopped after some pages :(
Don't let anyone success overshadow your hardwork. It seems hard to get where you want to be but trust me with time, everything will work out. Just trust the process. I know your patience is being tested at this point. I have been there and welllll giving up is not the best option. It shouldn't even be an option. Look for something you love doing and love yourself for that. Be strong and make lemonade
@Skeitu thank you for comforting me, I do hope it all will be okay. I actually feel really grateful for this life, it's just that I feel like a bad burden sometimes ;-;
Hey. I'm sorry u feel this way. Getting good grades may not hv helped everything, but u put in efforts to learn, u shud be proud of that. Since ur an adult now, why not book an affordable Airbnb somewhere in ur area with ur own mini vacation? Ur thoughts about not marrying until u heal are correct, but that doesn't mean u don't deserve love even now. I totally get hitting and flinging things, I relate to this, and I don't see the harm as long as ur not harming urself or anyone else, and doing it safely in a closed room. And an anger playlist and shredding paper also helps. These are non destructive ways to feel ur emotions, and if ur body needs it, that's what u shud do..hope this helped and tc💙 Also, society has ingrained this message, but u don't hv to have kids if u don't want to.
@reservedVase8999 :") wonderful, thank you! you really bring me comfort 🌻🧡 also thank you for giving me these nice advices 😭😭I'm truly grateful!
It’s disheartening when parents don’t carry out their promises. Especially when we’ve worked hard.
I don’t enjoy my birthdays either. Not because I hate my birthday. But because I don’t feel celebrated on my birthdays.
I hope you don’t beat yourself up too much for feeling anger. Which is such a human emotion.
I think I’ve had repressed anger for so long whenever I felt disappointed by someone. I overcorrected to protect myself. But I managed to find a balance.
I had moments where I couldn’t take it anymore and blew up at people. But now, I just let myself feel anger for a little while, and when I feel ready, I tell my person that I am upset because of XYZ.
You got this. Know that feeling anger or getting upset is a very human thing, and it happens when our body is trying to protect ourselves from danger. I hope we can be more kind to ourselves 🫂
@BubblegumCutie 😭😭😭thankk you for comforting me and understanding me.. that "i don't feel celebrated" is so relatable
i agree this anger is because i repressed my feelings for too long ::"")
it's awesome that you find your way to balance it, proud of you 👏🧡🧡thank you so much for being here 😭