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December 26 I made it through Christmas day without a break down, I did cry but it was remembering those who didn't make it to Christmas of 2018.

I'm fractured but not completely broken

I was unable to be present after anxiety attack for the wole day. Until today! I was able to "turn on" myself!

Step 5170:

The more confidence I have in myself, the more self respect and the more boundaries I protect - the less anxious and socially akward I am. So - social akward moments are not " me" - they are a product of my self critizism, projection and anxiety.

Stress is what we make it. Being able to recognize the signs & devert my enegry is not always easy but it helps to know i have a place to go when i feel lost.

Step 5190:

I am actually using SMOKING CIGS as a Coping Skill!

I get nic fit withdrawl - I run to smoke.

Anxious, angry, any emotion deeply felt - run to smoke

Want to procrastinate - run to smoke

on and on....

so...

quitting will have a lot more to do with using my healthy coping skills for the reasons i smoked AND for the withdrawl from smoking and habbit breaking.

I guess I am learning " coping skills" that are unhealthy can be a lot more vast and verried than I had given credit to. And each one needs to be looked at to be free of them.

I found another place to keep me accountable with regards to acknowledging my emotions. I still worry and feel I have a long way to go though. Everything still feels weirdly distant to me in a way that I

Step: 5200

I am not meant to struggle, worry, be fear based and unhappy

@GlenM

I learned relaxation techniques

My struggles are not what matter, but my approach to the problems define my character.