that being the person i was ment to be in a long hard road but with the right support and guidence anything is possible

I had a good day. . . it's been a while. Why can't I be like this all of the time? Only part is I was so busy cooking for the holiday (with friends and family) that I didn't get to write today. I'll add more to word count tomorrow.

Just keep going.

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I need to let go of my worries

I come again here . Because real life is too overwhelming. I dont think i can live like others. I cried for everything. And it bothers me a lot to the point i cant sleep. I cant let go of it. As if it haunted my life. I feel ashame of having this thought. I hate my self so much for being such a burden. To my husband . To anyone around me. I am so weak. My feelings feels so real yet it affect me so much.. i hate my self so much.

Ive learned when Im having a bad day I need to talk to people. Distract myself from being in my head.

I learn that I should stay calm always try not to get vex.

I learned that :

1. Focus on yourself and love yourself.

2. Focus on things what you have in your control.

That as much as the steps are helpful at first, they are very repetitive.