When I'm alone, one thing I do is .........
Oh, and take a bath
Pamper myself
Go on bike rides
Look up future Meetups to go to
Smoke and write and listen to music
Accept my life.
Give myself compassionate care!
having a deep discussion with my self ...
Watch netflix or read
cry
Because im too depressed and broken and braindamaged stuck rotting in the bleakest loneliest most sterile condition ive ever suffered in for so long, bereft of the smallest bit of excitement and with absolutely no prospect of life ever getting better, i often just ruminate about death 💀 dwelling morbidly on the thought of my own demise and how much i yearn for it bcuz that is the only realistic way that this pain will ever stop. How I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up again.
💀 💀 💀
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........-.
@hollowman84
I pray that this feeling of yours has changed since the date of this post for I too was in a similiar pit of darkness. I too longed for the swet surrender of "the end" for quite some time due to how my life was going....until I finally realized that "The End" wasn't coming for a reason. That THIS moment was the moment where I'd make the biggest and most crucial decision of my life. The choice to live. THe choice to move UP and OUT of this pit.
"Where else was there to go? I'm already at the bottom.", I thought to myself, "What harm would it really do me if I just decide to climb out of this pit of despair and start a new direction?". If I'm looking forward to the end in this limbo state of living, then I might as well try something spontaneous while I'm here. And so I decided to climb out, seek a new path in life (a more righteous path) which eventually allowed me to heathily reflect on my life and how I got to that dark place to begin with, and now I walk with a sense of purpose and peace that I didn't know existed before.
No, this isn't me trying me to force you down some religious path as it wouldn't be right of me, but what I'm saying is that, from someone who was literally days away from wanting to jump off of my roof, I can tell you that there is another way. You DESERVE that other way. The way to peace and true happiness is not impossible, it's just seemingly impossible to see in the dark. That is why I CHOSE the light. I CHOSE to follow God, and through that personal choice of mine, I've lived with new challenges sure, but challenges that I welcome and why?...because I choose to LIVE in peace and happiness.
Choose life my friend. The only thing that awaits you in darkness...is darkness.
Blast Fall Out Boy and Panic! At the Disco and jam out!
panic, worry and cry....I really need a better at home alone hobby.
@blissedNblessed I love listening to some feel good music with headphones, some of my suggestions are
@stoptakingmytoast
LOVE LOVE LOVE Have It All by Coldplay!
going to go listen to that now.
thanks!
Feel hopeless and lost and trapped
