Over three years later
(This may be a trigger warning) (I am also going to post this here because I can't find the grief forums.)
This topic started when I met with my counselor last Friday and we started talking about a former respite provider/support person. Though I had a very traumatic and toxic end with her a long time ago, I decided to give my counselor a back story about what happened. Actually, the provider and I had since made up. Though I wanted to catch up, she moved to another country to work as a resort.
Anyway, I wanted to show a picture of her to my counselor, however, I could not find her on social media. So I did a deeper diver only to learn that she died in that country three years ago. As of right now, I am in complete shock
@Summershy Hello Summershy, I totally understand your shock this news came totally unexpected. I'm hearing that she was really there for you while you were struggling so I understand this news can maybe bring up lots of feelings and that's totally normal. Don't hesitate to reach out to a listener either we are here for you!
@Clarezg
The sad part is that she and I had reconnected 6 years ago after having that nasty falling out, 8 years prior. Anyway, I have been taking some time to slow down and really reflect on the reality of the situation. Out of all the people that I have lost in the last 5 years, I can't believe that she's gone.
I also had a chance to reach out to one of her friends through the social media site. From what he said, it's believed that she took her own life by hanging herself on a tree. The thing is, I can't believe that she would do that. When I worked with her, she was always about preventing suicide. The main reason is that her brother also committed suicide back then.
@Summershy Learning more about her situation must've been such an even large shock for you especially since it seemed like she was advocating and bringing awareness to suicide. Sudden loss often catches us when we are most unprepared and leaves us confused. I totally understand the questions you are asking right now
However , I need to discuss that she was not perfect. During the misunderstanding and falling out, she was not very nice to me. There were other times where she didn’t respect me as a person.
On the other hand, we had some great times.
@Summershy, hi there :) I just wanted to send you a note because I found your post!
@cyanPlatypus6370
I had a good chance to cry about what happened because of that.
