Exhaustion

So I now have no parents. My Mom died a couple years back in may and now my dad has just died a week ago. Both of their Birthdays were also in may and both died before they could celebrate them (literally missed it by a couple of days for both of them) my dad was literally 3 days away from his bday which unfortunately coincided with Mother’s Day. I got through this week somehow but i still have to get pass my mom’s bday for next week.I will forever hate this entire month. I feel so exhausted i can hardly move. I don’t know what to do with myself besides sleep. Is this normal? I almost wish all of these painful reminders weren’t condensed in one month……….