Grandma
I miss my grandma. If she was here, I was gonna be better person for sure . She left 8 years ago. I still dream of her hugging me and me holding into her so tightly as I just wish it wasn’t a dream and wake myself up crying. I am afraid one day I am gonna forget her smile , her voice , her smell, her laugh, her hair , her hand, her hug. I am afraid I am not gonna be the person she wanted me to be . I am not the good person she said I am anymore. I don’t want to make her feel ashamed of who I became . I miss u teta so much it hurts . No one could ever understand . I couldn’t even attend her funeral cause I was 12 in another country. I will forever feel guilty
@gentleLake7011
My condolences 🙏
I'm so glad your keeping her memory alive and sharing the story of Teta with us..
You still have all those memories, this is so precious 🌲
Thank you ♥️
@gentleLake7011 Awww, I'm so sorry for your loss. The way you wrote about your grandma, I can tell how dear and loved she was by you and how much she loved you! ❤️
As for the guilt you feel-- you have nothing to feel guilty for! You were 12, a child, and in a different place. You didn't have control of certain things in life at that age and that's not your fault. Please don't continue to carry this burden. It's not yours. It's not your fault.
I'm sorry you feel as if your grandma wouldn't be proud of the person you are. Grandma's are something special and love unconditionally. If you really think you're not doing right by her to make her look down on you and be proud, it's not too late to make changes and do and be better. ❤️
She may have been gone all these years now, but still that doesn't erase the pain you feel missing her. You grieve however you need to in a healthy way. You keep talking about her, sharing her memory etc. It keeps her close and near to you. Take care. ❤️
Thank you.This is all really sweet .
And I will try my best to make her proud
@gentleLake7011 You're so welcome.
I’m so sorry for your loss, I send my deepest condolences ❤️
I want you to know that the fear of forgetting your grandma is so real, but I reassure you that although she isn’t physically present your teta is with you in moments you feel fulfilled and happy, whether that’s the cool breeze on a scorching hot day, or the random waves of positivity that strike you, your teta’s love for you will always surround you.