I think my dead son visited me in my dream last night
For some base context, my son was still born in 2017. He would have been 8 this October.
Last night I had a weird dream. I was in my house but it was empty. I saw a young boy (looking to be about 7 or 8 years old) wandering around the hall and living room. I followed him into the spare bedroom of my house where he turned around and called me mommy. He looked like a good mix of my ex (his other parent) and myself. He had dark blonde curly hair, blue eyes, and tanned skin. He kept telling me "mommy dont leave. Don't go. Stay." I asked what his name was and before the boy could finish saying his name, I woke up in a panic. From what I could hear of his name, it sounded like he was trying to say "Jay", which is the name i gave my son. My wife thinks it could have been my son visiting me in my dream, but im not sure. It's been leaving me emotional all day and im not sure if it really was a visitation dream or if my grief is just manifesting in my sleep.
@blueplott99
Firstly I am so sorry for your loss 🥺
I cannot imagine the pain you must have gone through.
How heartbreaking.
The expectancy of what would come, taken from you both.
My heart goes out to you.
It must have been a hard dream, but a strange comfort at the same time.
So much to get your head around
The birthday could have triggered your mind to wonder what He would be like, that's so natural!
Thank you for trusting us here, to share something so poignantly special! 💕💜
@blueplott99 he could be visiting you💖 or it could be the grief taking over🙁 but I believe our children are in heaven now watching down on us, like a guardian angel. So I think it would be nice to think he just wanted to come to you for what reason I don't know. But you got to see your son💖🙂 now you know what he looks like, treasure that memory💖 hugs you tightly 💖 when is his birthday?? 8 already🙂 it goes by so quickly 🥲
@Tinywhisper11 oh you already said it's in October, sorry😕 I'm right here for it you need to talk 💖
@blueplott99
I am terribly sorry to hear about your loss...
I believe it can be both. It can be manifestation of your grief. Also, I have no idea where I heard it, but some people tend to believe that when a child cannot be born, he or she may be waiting for a second chance.
The child's words "Mommy don't leave. Don't go. Stay." sound as if you felt guilty—though I am sure you did everything you could...
