Life after miscarriage
This is a constant reminder of how I fought all the battles alone.
Imagine—I wasn’t even the only one who put myself in this situation, yet I was the one left alone to face everything.
From having a baby to losing a baby… and losing myself at the same time.
God knows how hard I prayed for Him to help me put myself back together.
I went through things a person could never even imagine—
The pain, the sleepless nights, the betrayal, the humility.
How lucky I am to have survived and still be alive at this moment in my life.
I pray to God that I may one day find a partner who will never leave me when things fall apart.
When I couldn’t even think straight after everything I went through—
The trauma, both physical and mental—
I faced it all alone.
A deep betrayal made me feel like I was the enemy in the relationship,
Like I wasn’t allowed to feel hurt or be offended by his actions.
Yet all the pain and blame were thrown back at me,
Just because I was hurt by his reaction.
I still remember the days I was shattered into pieces,
Hurting myself physically so I wouldn’t have to feel the pain emotionally.
The sleepless nights, the hormones, the sudden shifts in my emotions—
Sometimes, I couldn’t even understand myself or what I was feeling.
God, please help me remove myself from this pain,
And make me a better version of myself—
Not the broken one I’ve become.
@coah2020
I am so sorry for your loss... i cannot imagine the pain you have endured.
You are right you should have had support in this and i am sorry your partner showed you who he is.
@coah2020
2 days ago I was scammed of usd5000. It was violently taken away from me in just a matter of few hours and please note that these are not the first time I am scammed. I have been scammed so much more worse before. I have multiple chronic disabling mental health diagnosis when I was 14 , I am now 41 namely Bipolar & OCD due to silent suffering of bullying and in my entire lifetime , I was unable to work. I live with my mother , a single mother ever since I was 5 and now she is still supporting me at her old age by working part time at a church . Many years ago my grandmother left me with around usd70,000 which I finish it in few days in stock market , that happened like 20 years ago .And now there were no savings at all except my mother's income as a part time staff at a local church . And then I am diagnosed with hypertension , diabetes and bad cholestrol, very bad trigy and so on. Few years back I knew something was wrong at my head, I refused treatment because I would rather die not knowing than to accept the possibility of another terminal illness . Do u think my situation is worse than you ?
