Losing someone but not by death
My best friend went missing a few months ago, around Christmas time. If I had known the last time I hugged her was goodbye I would have never let go. I wear a locket (we had matching ones) around my neck with her photo in it to keep her close. I know I'll never see her again and it hurts so much, even though she isn't dead it feels like I've lost her to that degree. None of my friends and family fully grasp how much it has impacted me. She was the best, such a talented, wonderful soul, loved by everyone. Her smile, laugh and confidence made me into a better person and I know that's what people always say but it's true. I'll never fill the void she left.
@Rubymaria2753 that's very sad 😢 let's hope and pray wherever she is, she's safe and happy. Grieving can come in many situations, and a missing person, your best friend. Well you have every right to be heartbroken. Sometimes our family and others don't always understand grieving to the extent we do, especially if they've never been in a situation like this, but here, we understand and care ❤ I care ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ you did so well reaching out here, please know you can always reach out here, you don't ever have to suffer alone, I'm right here for you ❤
Thankyou so much for the support. I can't even tell you how great it feels to hear someone understand and validate my feelings. ❤️
@Rubymaria2753 anytime sweetie ❤❤ I'm always right here for you, to wipe your tears, to hug and support you ❤ I'm always just a tag away ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ how are you feeling today?
I never know how to answer how I'm doing because it's like a roller coaster. Some days I get up and I'm doing so well and then the loss hits me all over again and I go plummeting down. But then I do also have good moments where I feel I'm making progress. I've been focusing on all the little accomplishments (like this morning I got up amd had a shower so I'm feeling good about myself today) but its hard just pretending she's not gone. Every other friendship in my life feels so fake and I know I'm constantly comparing them to her because our friendship was just a different level. When I'm in school and I say something to my friends and no one even listens all I can think about is how she would be listening if she was here. I spend lunches on my own and sit by myself in class because she was the only one who waited for me to go out for lunch and she was was the only one who ever saved me a seat. I've been avoiding school for months. I've missed several weeks in a row but I just can't face it someday knowing I won't see her. I feel I do better at home where its quiet and there's less people around me who don't even seem to notice she's gone. I find I can't focus at school but I make some progress at home. I just wish I wasn't so alone all the time. It's silly but she's person that I want to talk to this about because I know she'd know exactly what to say to make me feel better but I obviously can't tell her.
Thankyou again for listening it's great to get some off this off my chest, I really appreciate it. 💕💕💕
@Rubymaria2753 you had such a beautiful friendship ❤ and yeah it's hard to answer how are you today? Cause it really can change so much through out the day. I can only imagine how your world is turned upside down right now😞 I've been keeping you both in my prayers ❤ I wish I could take away your pain, I wish there was a way she could safely return. When you wear that locket, then your hugging her in your heart, that's where she's safe ❤and I'm hugging you in my heart, always, so you know your safe and loved ❤ it's ok to vent here and cry, or talk about anything on your mind, you are safe here. And I will always listen ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Rubymaria2753 I hope they safely return home, soon.
@Rubymaria2753
im so very sorry to hear about your friend. That must be terribly devastating to not have answers or closure of any type. I do hope that your friend returns home safely.
Kristy
@Rubymaria2753
People often don't realize that grief does not mean the person you lost died. It is any loss of any kind. I am sorry to hear about what has been going on with your friend. I really do hope your friend is found safely. Let us know how we as a community can offer you support.
