My baby
I was 14 when I got pregnant and I was happy for a while and I was a little bit scared but I guess God just told me it wasn't your time with any time to become a mother losing your time to have this child it was an accident but at the same time I was so lost I was writing it and I was 3 months in it's my pregnancy and I lost my baby God told me that it wasn't time for you to be a mom I have been taking care of my siblings since I was 7 years old I have six siblings two of them are older than me neither one of them like to help with kids of 17 character kids I was 11 taking care of four kids and I was 14 about to become a mom I was worried but excited I was so mad when I lost my baby I was thinking I said and I had a miscarriage I cried a lot I stayed in my room and my person started I understand that I was 14 years old shouldn't have been doing any of that I should have never been having a kid but we all understand mistakes and mistakes happen and we all make mistakes the loss is a loss and that's what we have to deal with as humans.
@friendlyShade2009 It sounds like you are a strong person to have navigated all of this. Each child is precious- the ones we have and the ones we lose. Many people would be very upset and angry if they were in your circumstances, so that makes perfect sense to me. Anger is an important emotion, and you are correct = we are all humans and everyone makes mistakes. It sounds like you have compassion for yourself! Good on you!
@friendlyShade2009
Your pain is so real. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It sounds like you have had to grow up so fast and you are still just a child yourself. I know you were worried about how having a child of your own was going to be, but it sounds like you were also excited because this child was part of you. I can understand being angry for losing your baby after carrying the baby for three out of the nine months. I can't say that I know exactly what you are feeling right now or how the process is going to look as I have never been in your shoes. I do know that it can be hard. I want you to know that we in the Cups community are here for you. You are not alone.
During this grief, feel free to just tell us the thoughts that are going through your mind, tell us a little bit about what your hopes and dreams were for this child, did you have a name picked out? I know it can be hard to talk about loss and sometimes talking about those we lost makes it easier. It can seem weird to find things to talk about a baby that was miscarried but just because there weren't concrete memories with your baby just yet, you do have abstract. Remember the first time you knew you were expecting, to your first ultrasound, to the first kick, that kind of thing, if that makes sense.
