Allies diary ( open to all )
@wolf2903
eing worthless
...Sorry for being a burden to you
...Sorry for the time wasted on me
...Sorry for not being perfect like you wanted
...Sorry for not being smart enough
...Sorry for not being pretty enough
...Sorry for not being better than everyone
...Sorry for the money you've wasted on me
...Sorry for all the problems I've caused
...Sorry for being who I am
...Sorry for being a mistake
...Sorry for being an accident
...Sorry for breathing
...Sorry for existing
But you won't have to worry about me much longer
...Sorry for my cuts
...Sorry for my bruises
...Sorry for my emotional damages
...Sorry for my physical damages
...Sorry for everything
@Wolf2903
@sunshinegiraffe123 hey hey hey I'm here princess talk to me
@Wolf2903
theres not much to talk about ...
just didn't feel like sharing that in the room as it may trigger someone in there ...
@sunshinegiraffe123 then let's talk here
@sunshinegiraffe123 princess promise me you won't do anything plz
@sunshinegiraffe123 your not any of those things to me princess plz believe that
@Wolf2903
im not gonna do anything
I'm just messed up rn
@sunshinegiraffe123 hey i know that this probably isn't my buisness and i can leave if you want.
but
you are never a burden
there is always something to live for
you are never a waste of space because you think and you feel like every human
you don't have to be beautiful
you don't have to change who you are for anyone else
please know that you are cared for
sorry for barging in...
@olliebear
I..
ur not barging in .. trust me..
I have lots of things happening in my life rn..
kinda don't have parents..
kinda am just really messed up
anyone is welcome here though
@sunshinegiraffe123
@sunshinegiraffe123
I am sorry that you are in pain and i hope that it eases soon
what all is going on?
do you need to talk about it or rant or what
and if you want me to piss off just tell me
@olliebear
ill try to not trigger you as much I can
1. My father tried to hurt me
2. Hes now in jail bc he threw cups and plates
3. my mom died
4. my best friend died a week ago ( or around that )
5. This is only my third week since my mom passed
@sunshinegiraffe123 don't worry about triggering me
your father is not able to hurt you any longer.
i am so, so, sorry that he tried but
that doesn't say anything about you or your worth, it just says something about him.
I am sorry that you are having to deal with so much loss in a short period of time.
I know that you have lots of people telling you this but it truly does get better.
i can't give you a cure but i can tell you what i wish someone had told me-
its going to hurt like hell but one day you will be able to be reminded of them and smile, not cry.
i promise that you are going to get there- we both can
you have gone through so much to get here, I know that you can get through this too
its shitty that you have to deal with this.
you may be in a low spot right now but that doesn't define you
you are not horrible even if your situation is.
I'm fine
I'm low but I'm fine
I'm horrible but I'm fine
@sunshinegiraffe123
you may be in a low spot right now but you will get through it.
In this crazy journey of life that you are on, you will go through valleys and lot spots.
But you will also climb out of those and make it to the mountaintops.
You can do this.
you don't have to do it alone.
@olliebear
I wish I was on a mountain top rn saying hey look at me I've made it
#adopted
Christmas miracle
I have a family! I love them! I have heat and power!
@Gracey
@Wolf2903
@olliebear
@sunshinegiraffe123
THAT IS AMAZING ALLIE!
I am so happy for you!
you deserve this so much.
congratulations buddy.
@sunshinegiraffe123 yay I'm so happy to hear this allie
@sunshinegiraffe123
That's so wonderful! <3 I'm glad something is going well
@frigidstars27
correct
@jennysunrise8
@sunshinegiraffe123
hey allie how are you doing today?
@jennysunrise8 hey jennie
@Wolf2903
hi wolf how have you been ?
@jennysunrise8 I've been better
@Wolf2903
either of you can pm me if you want to talk about anything 🐈
Anxiety is eating me today
@AstronomySkies @Hopedreamlove @Gracey
For those who don't know , I don't like walking. For someone like me it can be so hard to walk bc of autism and the trauma.
i haven't walked unassisted for two years
and rn I'm standing about to take my first step.
@jennysunrise8 @Gracey
1. happy easter
2. hope you guys are doing well
3. I'm sorry for my past..
@sunshinegiraffe123
Happy Easter allie and im sure me and lacey with both message you ;)
oh i found this little guy outside the door i think he needs a home
@jennysunrise8
Awww he's so cute :)
@jennysunrise8 @Gracey or anyone else reading this , can you please comment...
An absent, however hard it tries,
Will always be gone.
Down, down, down into the darkness of the absent,
Gently it goes - the departed, the dead, the asleep.
I cannot help but stop and look at lost disappearances.
Are you upset by how missed they are?
Does it tear you apart to see the disappearances so perplexed?
The yellow absentee sings like a my soul
An absentee is yellowish. an absentee is dishonorable,
an absentee is lily-livered, however.