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@amiableBunny4016 @Fluffysheep8 (thus is all I have memorized more will be added when I get to my computer)

I love this. I cant wait to hear more from you!!!! Yayy!

*hugs if wanted*

Okay, first post time! Can you believe I'm actually alittle nervous. I've decided to post on Saturday (my time) just to bring the week to a close. My goal is to list 1 significant thing that happened each day, just to keep in mind, the positive things in my life. (Sundays are my off day, I try to do nothing so it won't be included in the posts unless like nessicary)

Monday: Monday was a boring day. I got up and did my school, the normal. I forget if anything actually happened *oops*

Tuesday: I went to the library and got the book for this month's book club. The book is league of liars by Astrid scholte. It was such a good book. I always went painting pottery with my friend for her birthday. I painted such a pretty Llama, and I had alot of fun.

Wednesday: this day I went out got a Christmas tree. It was real awesome.

Thursday: on this day we decorated for christmas. I didn't like it very much because it was a tad stressful but the house looks awesome. (I also ran away this day, but I came back)

Friday: I purged cleaned my entire room. Top to bottom. I threw out 2 fulls bags of stuff I didn't need. I got rid of my hoards of food and pads :/. I was really proud of myself. I also opened up to my bf which was really really hard, but it went well.

Saturday : today, I cleaned a bit more, finished up schooling for the week and went to my friends house. My aunt was supposed to come over but she didn't. I went to get the Guinea pig I'm petting sitting for my fren, lightning. The Guinea pig is so so so sooo cute. I love him already.

This week had its ups and downs, but it was really really good. I like to end on a quote, then I'll add my tag list ( it's still growing so expect some more in the comments to follow XD)

It takes 10 times as long to put yourself back together, as it does does fall apart. ~ mockingjay by Susanne Collins

I hope we can all heal. Together.

Taglist: @amiablebunny4016, @Fluffysheep8, @Naomilynn13

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Thanks fam, see you next week <3

^{It's been a heck of a month and I'm just gonna do a rant.}

^{I want someone to here me.}

^{Today I'm discussing over apologizing.}

^{Sometimes we do it because we are insecure. Sometimes we do it because of childhood trauma. There are other reasons but I don't feel like googling alot.}

^{Over apologizing Is the act of apologizing when there is no reason. Most times people still feel guilty when they don't need too.}

^{I'm not very educated on the why or the how so domt quote me on all that. I am not a genius but a simple person.}

^{All I'm saying is that it can be really hurtful to tell someone who is apologizing like that, not to apologize. I feel really guilty , and that's why I apologize. It's almost like saying that the way I feel is wrong.}

^{If you notice me over apologizing, please say something idk like "I understand that your sorry, but you don't have to feel like that", or "it's okay, you did nothing wrong tho"}

^{That's all fam}

its been eons since ive posted and I'm so sorry but I'm making a post today and that's a start!

things have been going really really tough for me and this is a safe space for me to just dump so that's what I'm going to do.

Money has become an ever-stressing issue in my house. my mom is worried about how we are going to afford food for this week, not even beginning to think about rent. My brother is taking what little money we do have and its stressing me out. He doesn't care enough to call us but he can take our rent money. he has a job and very little financial worry and its just not fair.

My dad have recently received news he has to watch his *something* levels cause they are very high. Hes cutting out all these like insane things and it bothers me and my mom because he's going really extreme and is insisting he has like the best most expensive water and we cant really afford that. At his job they order food everyday (horrible for money management btw) and he asked for salads but they said no so he's been eating sushi. Says its worth the 12 dollars. my mom could barely afford the 40 dollars for my dogs life saving meds. and yet he's spending 12 dollars on sushi. i don't get it. anyway

i start counseling on the 26th and I'm really scared and nervous. i don't wanna break the person cause they are a college student. the whole situation is complicated.

on a positive note i have set a new goal : read 400 pages a day. ill let you all know how that goes.

@CalmCoral @Fluffysheep8 @amiablebunny4016 @theoneaviva more tags to follow cause ik I'm forgetting someone

Last night I offically reached my goal! I read the last 110 pages of "Girl in Pieces" by Kathleen Glasglow. Then i read the first 160 pages of a book for girl scouts. I was going to read more, to 290 to reach my goal, but the book became triggering and I had had a rough day so i figured I might as well stop. This was about mid night and I was tired and my meds were kicking in but I was determined to reach this goal. I then read 250 pages of this little kids comic called "CatWad". Its about a grumpy cat and his friend, very funny.

I think I am going to change my goal to 300 pages during the week, and 400 during the weekend just since I don't have much time to read anymore.

I got some really good books at the library and I'm super excited to read then. Lemme share the titles. (there are in order of which i would like to read them)

"CatWad: 2" by Jim Benton

"CatWad: 3" by Jim Benton

"Before I Let Go" by Marieke Nijkamp

"Allegedly" by Tiffany D. Jackson

"Fade Away" by Harlen Coben

*bad word redacted but ill give the simple version-* "Heck Followed with Us" by Joseph Andrew White

"Ink and Bone" by Racheal Caine

"Girls with Sharp Sticks" by Susanne Young

the book for girl scouts- "My Eyes are Up Here" by Laura Zimmerman

the book for book club (that i get to keep)- "Anatomy: A Love Story" by Dana Schwartz

Later i will post pictures of these covers cause they are so pretty!

Taglist: @Amiablbunny4016 @mysteriousClover @Fluffysheep8 @Calmcoral (probably others I'm forgetting, sorry)

lemme know if you've read any, and i will probably talk about them as a i read them

Yk i said i was gonna post weekly but i think i enjoy daily. Yesterday was a rough day but nothing fun happened, wait no.

I started taking French again! which is super exciting

I finished 'My eyes are up here' for girl scouts. It was really uncomfy for me to read just because its very much about a girl and her breasts. And the author doesn't seem to know much about body positivity because this girl went from hating herself, to loving herself in a matter of a paragraph. I can tell you from experience, that's not how it works.

I also started "before i let go" last night and its really good so far. Its about a girl and her friend passes away. her friend was mentally ill so everyone suspects that she was looking for a crack in the ice, but the main character suspects foul play.

@JustHumanThatsNotPerfect @Systemofwolves @amiablebunny4016 @FluffySheep8 @Calmcoral

Did my taglist first so I don't forget the capital letters and have to retype thus post for a 3rd time. Take 2, here we go.

I redid my room this morning. Everything is in a different place and I just feel renewed, like I have a fresh start.

I also came out to my friend as a system this week. It was really hard for me but she was super accepting. I made her, and my other friend who knows, a little guide for me and my self and my alters and all that crap.

I went to my friend shayleys house yesterday. They are so kind and supportive and so much fun. I love them so much and could talk to them for just hours.

I also facetimed my friend hera today. She's so amazing and wonderful and just ughhhh. I have had so many rough and poop friends in my life but these 2, they mean the world to me.

I have not finished before I let go, but I will tonight and you can hear about it tomorrow.

I've been super dsyphoric the past few days and I didn't even get changed today cause I don't want to look at myself. Can't wait to shower later /j

I almost asked my mom if I could order a binder for my chest but I got super scared and backed out.

I also started taking French again so now I'm taking French and Spanish and I love learning languages.

That's it all my fam, see you next time

Okay so i just wanted to yk make a post.... well duh anyway

I've had a really bad last few days but last night, last night was amazing.

I went to bookclub, and i was feeling slay. i had on my yellow plaid dress and a black t-shirt on underneath. i was also wearing 2 bras for *binding*. i did my makeup and i looked super cool and i was just yk feeling the vibe. when i got there it was just me and my 2 irl besties and the lady running it. I was so glad to spend time with hera and shayley again, especially sharing something i love as much as book club. we were laughing and i was just all in all having a great time. Shayley kept using they/them pronouns for me and i was just *glowing*. i think that's one of the first times irl someone has gone out of their way to use they/them for me and i was just idk i love it. After book club i asked the lady if she had the arc books left or if she threw them out... she still had them! i got 5 books :D. i got

jagged little pill the novel

one of us is lying

all these bodies (read this one before)

the something, the witch and the sea (hera recommended this one)

and (dont) call me crazy.. this ones about mental health.

I also got some stickers, i got 2 mha ones, a puppy in a scarf, a cactus cat, and a ouran highschool host club sticker. the host club and the puppy went right onto my laptop, they are filling some of the gaps.

i was in such a good mood after, i was shaking, just vibrating and radiating pure happiness. my sister made fun of me for it, called me bipolar and was laughing, then made fun of me for being emo (idk) and i looked at her and said (this is a direct quote)" if your trying to ruin my mood, its not going to work. i don't need your love to be happy" she looked angry and defeated, but it was true.

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