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Previously I was 'Polaris2088'.
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That one episode of Pokemon where Ash's Chimchar becomes a Monferno, does that fist combination and the lack of reaction from Paul?--me trying to impress my boss at work.
@Modal0154
maybe your boss did have a reaction and was impressed but you were just looking for a different reaction and it didnt happen ;) i like your new place here 
@Modal0154 This? https://youtu.be/R7sjw9Pnr3o
Charlie
@RarelyCharlie
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If I explain 'how' or 'why' I think that, it becomes a rant ;/, but
+0:50 yes
@Modal0154 This is your place. Rants are OK here 
Charlie
@RarelyCharlie
Obrigado *possible* Portuguese speaker..
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Autism and it's consequent 'slowness' makes for continously aggravatingly paced work place expectations/outcomes if not w/ unambigious eloquence and gentleness treated w/ / handled w/education at a young age..=_= and yet never expect 'neuronormatives' to hold much patience.
Hate how 'Hey slow-mar' was said to be by someone I shared a sense of camraderie w/long ago. His first name was my middle name.
..*Sigh*..
My namby-pamby a-- just sent a 'veiled assertion' to my boss to be on more shifts among coworkers, being brought up secondly after a seemingly innocous question about the reason for certain DVD's being on display more than others..
~1:26 '_'...w/a hope that I'm not f--d if she is actually in tonight or her disappointment for me is going to be amplified it went.. .p.m. EST..
I'm not going to 'compensate' w/ 'any open bookmobile' positions still?'..yet...the class I'm taking is ending, the month is ending, the year+decade is ending...and I still have a second 'event based' job which provides steadily for me..
'Librarian assistant' ..not 'boss'..
She's not here :D !..
..and I did verify how w/someone else b/c they have a 2nd job + have more scheduled days they are more likely to be partnered..
--waiting for email response sans face of annoyance
Break ending..
@Modal0154
Where I look into my email w/suspended dread..
(i) an reply is provided via email in a non-p.o'd way..
(ii)I wait in dread until Saturday for an outcome which I don't look forward to both in terms of face and auditory face (the voice)
@Modal0154
[expletive].. ._. .. ~'on November 25th when you come to work we will talk about some of your concerns'... ._. ...
@Modal0154
[expletive].. ._. .. ~'on November 25th when you come to work we will talk about some of your concerns'... ._. ...
=_=..I hate east Hamilton..
I hate the concept of 'work 'and 'labour'...I hate the mind-numb poisonous anger and apathy..I hate ugly auditory faces and the all too prevalent risks of being borderline 'dismissed on decree'...I hate how such behaviourisms and atittudes remain and reign basically after someone hit their preteen years..I hate how it's imitation of those pig ignorant modalities of emotional regulation from decades if not centuries past..I hate how difficult it is to be authentic...I hate how most of humanity runs on these 'stupid=irresponsible' popularity contests and still has the audacity to ask itself how come things don't improve..I hate obsequiousness is an illussion more increased by autism..I hate how a significant amount of time mangament seems to pretend having 'lived'/'gone through the motions' of living via lip service to petty 'rules' that a fair amount of younger and healthier staff probably could physically kick their a-- if they had it their way--not that said staff *intentionally* mean to be nusances...
I can understand how ppl 'hate not being their own boss'..I hate how stupid it is to think that psychological bare w/someone it is actually preferable to 2/3 of the working population to 'operate autonomously'..
..I hate how this might be 'as good as it gets' when it comes to me and work..
Nonsecular notion:
What I stated aboves fuels these 'nightmare constructs' about value-judgement being projected onto theism, a reality that is closer to Jung's universal consciousness but when you get fired or a boss gets angry that what universal consciousness is doing is..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KeTBqolcrO8 .. up until 1:27, with varying degrees of nonreluctance..
b/c nothing is ever personal..that's the problem..
judgment and how it's very f---g meaning is taken for granted, how it's very f--g meaning is not cared for..
@Modal0154
im glad you have a meeting with your boss you have plenty of time to plan out what you want to say - sorry so late putting up your X picture :)
For the 'far-fetched' concept of UBI to catch its going to mean..if all 'external' conditions were ideal in that inflation wouldn't follow nor tax increases...it would mean having to prove on a scale of 10's of 1000's, on a scale which is collective..demonstrating that 'w/that spare time' most ppl wouldn't be yielding to addictions...
Why art education is important..
=_= Why the f--k is Hamilton 'so small'...?
person I remember from 2nd high school to my right, arrived on a/to use a computer now..
@Modal0154
..you can't conflate ethical displeasure w/aesthetic displeasure..posturing
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Imagine ppl still stupid enough to say 'get a real job!' in a post-scarcity world. Imagine ppl still irresponsible enough to say 'get a real job!' in a post-scarcity world.
What 'Room 1407' was to Mike Enslin/John Cusack's character is what the first high school I went to is to me..
Matt Hollingsworth and Kilian Plunkett --
DVSA course about..comic drawing style drawing (?)..
uninspired art maybe b/c of the pressure of expediency as work draws down b/c the class is ending..
=u= =~= Oh, that I were to have the patience to read everything I read in the past 'top to bottom' more often.
When you wonder about what is responsible for making responsibility so often be infamously expressed in snobby ways.
..The exotericization of empathy..
No more 'curating' as to what put on display anymore..nowhere as long.
That's no longer a relevant strategy...my fave pt. of the job.
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W/'[name's] advice I worked well..at least as efficient as [name] yesterday..
'Crazy' idea:
From what I remember an instructor saying once being a Mohawk college instructor she is technically able to take *any* course at the community college, free of charge..
..maybe...I was employed at Mohawk college's library (Fennell campus or otherwise), I would be able to take courses for free..
@Modal0154
Library based or otherwise..
Admitting to possible overwhelming of excitement..
`_` Okay..saying that is naive to put it one way..okay..saying that is shortsighted to put it one way..
..I doubt that, that is accessible to any Mohawk employees..a few family members have been custodians there for one thing and I doubt that, that 'door to opportunity' is there for them..
I'm telling myself these things if/for how in worst case scenerio I am dismissed and it would come off as laughable to request a reference to for a library position elsewhere..
..the history of the diversity of what is offered at a school is..apparently..>:| the diversity of teachers actually caring and not being f--k ups..
Lo que no cambia con el mundo es su apatia. Lo que no cambio conmigo fue mis metas.
@Modal0154
*Sigh*
Trust and confidence being the same word..
('confianza'--Spanish).
