[TW] Emo’s little emotional corner 🥲
Possible trigger warnings: death, sh
read at your own risk I guess
🥲 I know this month isn’t as bad as last month, but I still feel so awful. I know I have been sh free for 3 months but as the days go by some are getting harder and harder not to go back to old habits, UnU I wish my nana was still around. ☹️ I miss her so much 😢 ever since she passed away my mental health was never the same, it got so bad and it’s better now but my depression is terrible.. some days I feel like I’m falling deeper into the hole of depression while climbing out at the same time. 😢 and here’s me complaining about headaches when I literally do nothing about them. 🥲 what I learnt from today is try not to laugh lots with a headache as it makes it worse. I’m also sad today ☹️ I graduate high school soon and lose a whole network of irl support ☹️ so sad
@emotionalTalker2260 You're welcome to talk about it if you'd like. Unless it's triggering for you to talk about - I'll consider myself warned ok? But there's absolutely no pressure either way ❤️
It is hard to let them go
Some of these bugs - ugh - I get alot of error messages when I go to post some times 😕
@mytwistedsoul
Omg, I hate the error messages. :') and my laptop is being all gramical telling me how to type (i hate this lol)
but idk if i wanna say what really happened :') tis way too bad
@emotionalTalker2260 My phone has been acting weird here too today. Graphic stuff. Half a reply button missing or flashy spots - idk how to describe it lol
Hey that's ok :) no worries ok? You have to be comfortable sharing ❤️
How was your day today?
@mytwistedsoul
oh gosh :') thata worse then my phone lol.
My day, I've been super tired. I knew I went out partying last night (not so much a smart idea when I have to be on more meds atm), and i have no memory of what happened except for the fact that the people i try to 'annoy' ended up giving me a lift home :') oof. totally did not want to get up off the ground and they made me get up. (idk if it was depression or exhaustion or what, but i did not want to move)
How was your day (:
@emotionalTalker2260 Yeah its usually not a good idea to mix meds with drinks. I can't say too much about because I've done it myself :P Sometimes Idk - with the depression and being tired - its allmost self destructive I guess mixing the two. Anything to numb the pain. Um - just be careful ok? There's alot of not so good people out there
I'm glad you got a ride home though - even if you did have to get up off the ground :) try to grab a nap and catch up on some sleep. Being too tired can make you feel worse
My day was cold and rainy. Now its just cold lol. I guess I'm alittle like you and exhausted and depressed. It seems really bad this time - I just can't seem to shake it :/
Thank you for asking 💙 Be gentle with yourself ok? *hugs*
@mytwistedsoul
*hugs*
yeah, it did numb the pain, but like, never again :') haha. and yeah, I know things could've been so much worse then what it was but like, tbh, I don't care about what happens to me
and awww *sends warmth*
@emotionalTalker2260 I wish there was something I could say to make you change your mind but I do understand that not caring what happens. That whole - meh I had a good run - I'm just gonna lay down here for a while. The world can go on by it's self You're depressed and hurting. Some of your hurts are big hurts that won't just go away
Could you talk to someone about maybe trying some meds? Maybe they could help? I know too that sometimes we need more than just some online community - do you have hotlines or warmlines you can call - it you would want or need? A counselor or therapist?
*sends strength and hugs* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
the world hurts. but I am back on my meds, I am taking them again, but i have changed a few things up, instead of having them with my nonexistent breakfast, I have them with dinner (:
I have been thinking about reaching back out to what seems to be my new counsellor on a helpline :0
@emotionalTalker2260 The world does hurt. There's so much going on in it. People seem so angry over everything
Its probably better to take them with food. I'm pretty bad with that too and then I wonder why I feel nauseous. I hope they help
Is this the same person you were talking to before? The one that was so nice?
Were you able to get any rest?
@mytwistedsoul
yeah there’s too much going on in the world to be honest. But I avoid the news as it makes me even more depressed then I already am.
I do take my meds with food, thats why I choose to take them at dinner
and yes I have spoken to this one a few times now, they’re so lovely 🥰
And how are youuu?
@emotionalTalker2260 The news is depressing. I try not too watch too much but I usually do anyway. My brain seems to need reassurance that the world is falling apart :/
I'm not a breakfast eater either. Eating after waking up is the last thing on my mind. I live on coffee lol! Dinner is usually the meal of the day
I'm glad you're able to talk to the same one. It helps not having to repeat everything we've talked about
I guess I'm getting frustrated that I can't shake this depression. It feels like I'm watching myself fade away and Idk how to stop it
*hugs* Thank you for asking ❤️
I can’t do this anymore 😖 I *** can’t..
@emotionalTalker2260 *dropping off hug and sending good vibes* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
*hugssss* soullllll : D
how is youuu?
@emotionalTalker2260 Hey! 😊 I'm ok ❤️ How are you?
@mytwistedsoul
I am so exhausted *smh*. I have not slept since.. idk nearly two days ago now I guess xD. The weather here is just ew. And I just cannot sleep.
I am glad to hear you are ok though 😊💖 *sends love*
@emotionalTalker2260 Oh no! That really sucks. Is there something on your mind or insomnia? Yucky weather doesn't help either. Have you ever tried visualization? I use it for pain and anxiety. It sometimes helps me doze off too
@mytwistedsoul
unfortunately this thing here has aphantasia. Which means I actually have no imagination and I cannot picture anything in my head :’) and my daydreams are literally just me thinking
and yeah, was an insomniac night the heat was bleh and it was cold at the same time too. So i was just completely uncomfy all night long. And ooooooo, tinkerbelllll
@emotionalTalker2260 Oh man Emo that sucks. I can't even - I mean I've heard of it but you're the first person I think I've met that has it. It must be hard 😞
Oh no insomnia sucks so bad. I really hope it goes away soon so you can sleep. That kind of weather is yucky. No wonder you had trouble getting comfy
*Hugs Emo tight* I hope you get sleep soon ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Eh, its not really a big thing to me i guess. I’m used to it. But I do want to bring awareness to it :3
*hugs* I did sleep goodly the other night! And Got a new blankie today which is just 🥰🥰🥰
hope you’re okies 💖
@emotionalTalker2260 I think it's definitely a good thing to bring attention to it because there's probably not many people who are aware of it or understand much about it
@mytwistedsoul
Yes! it is so great bringing awerness to things unknown :)
@mytwistedsoul
@emotionalTalker2260 😊❤️
Just peeking in 👀
@SleepyShyCat
catttttttttt 🥺💖💖💖
I can’t do this anymore 😭😭😭
Sits quietly with Emo ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
🥺🥺 soulllll <3
@emotionalTalker2260 *offers safe hugs* ❤️ is there anything I can do to help?
@mytwistedsoul
I don't know 🥺
@emotionalTalker2260 What's on your mind my friend? You're safe to share here if you'd like ❤️
It's ok too if you'd rather not or maybe don't know or can't find the words. I mean - I know it's hard when there's all this stuff going on inside us and around us and we can't even explain it 😞
I lit a candle for you and I'm sending good thoughts and vibes ❤️ I know realistically it's not much help but it's the thought that counts? 😅
Much love to you dearest Emo ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Will answer tomorrow when on ipad- phone all bleh still
@emotionalTalker2260 Ok ❤️ Just - maybe try to take it easy today ok? Do things for yourself - even if it's just resting or watching silly videos
@mytwistedsoul
I am just breaking down- crying 🥲 done something absolutely stupid and 100% regrettable last night. *hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260 *hugs Emo tight* ❤️ I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. That it was regrettable says something though you know? You're trying to be good to yourself - you stumbled alittle - tomorrow is a new day. I hope it's a good day for you
@mytwistedsoul
*hugsss* 🥺💖💖💖
@emotionalTalker2260 Hey you ❤️ you've been in my thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
aww soul 🥺💖 you’re such a sweet person 😊💖
@emotionalTalker2260 Thank you 🥺 I think you're a pretty sweet person too ❤️
Hi emorexo, just read the post, sorry to hear about the amount of things you are going through and the loss of your family member, I remember you talked about them in a group chat once and you felt happy you was with them before thier final days, truly is something hard to feel loss from someone you loved and looked up to alot, it is good that you are posting and sharing your feelings out, reaching out is a very strong thing to do when your mind maybe telling you the opposite, im glad you use 7cups to get your feelings and thoughts out, well done for doing that, please make sure you look after yourself during these difficult days and months ahead, sending beams and hugs your way, 🥰❤️🤜🤛🙏
@Kingburger23
Burger 💖💖💖
