[TW] Emo’s little emotional corner 🥲
Possible trigger warnings: death, sh
read at your own risk I guess
🥲 I know this month isn’t as bad as last month, but I still feel so awful. I know I have been sh free for 3 months but as the days go by some are getting harder and harder not to go back to old habits, UnU I wish my nana was still around. ☹️ I miss her so much 😢 ever since she passed away my mental health was never the same, it got so bad and it’s better now but my depression is terrible.. some days I feel like I’m falling deeper into the hole of depression while climbing out at the same time. 😢 and here’s me complaining about headaches when I literally do nothing about them. 🥲 what I learnt from today is try not to laugh lots with a headache as it makes it worse. I’m also sad today ☹️ I graduate high school soon and lose a whole network of irl support ☹️ so sad
☹️ I hate the feelings I am having atm, like they are next to nothing but there’s so much anger and sadness and hate.. I hate this. 🥲 doesn’t help that group chats are literally useless rn, like who ignores someone who is having a panic attack.. love it noting it went for 3 hours.. 🥲 and even better noting I got very triggered during that panic attack from irl life.. so I have literally given up on group support once again and I am getting fed up with how uncomfortable rooms are getting. Tcr is unfriendly, sr is unsupportive and sc is just too quiet 😀 so I give up on group chats, I hate it, just like my life and my depression and anxiety and all the crap things I have witnessed 😀😀😀😀
@emotionalTalker2260
same here, moo moo. i took a break but now that im back, the rooms just dont seem very appealing. sc is usually empty, tcr and sr are either empty or completely not on topic and it sucks. im sorry that youre not able to get the same level of support; you really do deserve it. im sorry to hear that everything has been difficult for you recently, you dont deserve to have to listen to your father all the time, it totally makes sense that it annoys you and makes you feel worse. :c huggles if you want them, you matter so very much, youre alive and breathing and thats awesome ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
@ahhhhelpimalive
*huggles* :/ rooms do suck atm
😕 I am completely sick of my father complaining about me multiple times a day, I’m *** sick of it 😭 every day it’s the same crap 😢 like who complains about their kid everyday.. no wonder why I am so depressed I don’t have any feelings 🥺 I am over it, I just wish it’d stop and I wish my depression would go shoo shoo 😞
😀 my town is flooding, there’s so much rain, and somehow I slept through a thunderstorm 😀 like HOW.. and I must’ve been dreaming during the thunderstorm, yes I did actually have a good dream for the first time in 3 months, I rarely dream and usually when I do it’s nightmares that actually cause a bit of trauma because they’re so *** scary ☹️. Anyone who is reading this, me is safe, I live in a zone where it doesn’t flood. 😕 I hate rainy weather, it makes me more depressed 🥲
🥺
@emotionalTalker2260
many huggles for moomoo <3
@ahhhhelpimalive
*huggles Liv* ;-;
@emotionalTalker2260
*hearts and hugs for moo* would you like to talk through things? <3
@ahhhhelpimalive
😮 my feelings are weird, idk how I feel, but all I know is that it’s awful
@emotionalTalker2260
ack, i get that :c it sucks to just feel off and down and much ahhhh
try to take care of yourself? any type of comfort things that you could try? (i find that wearing comfort clothes and music and water can sometimes help, even if just a little bit)
@emotionalTalker2260
@theriverissinging
*hugs*
@emotionalTalker2260 , I hope you feel better soon, take all your time okie! ❤
@Aikyaa01
Awww 🥺💕 *hugs*
I'm totally not nearly crying, I didn't expect you to appear in my diary like I did with yours🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕 thank you 🥺💕
@emotionalTalker2260 , aww no problem ❤ you're really sweet. :")
Today is probably gonna be the day I cry, first, Barely Anyone Understands Autism.. 😕 sometimes I can’t answer questions because my brain is wired differently and cannot *** process it 🙁 and from what I picked up, I am sure a listener yelled at me by the tone of the message 🙁
next to no one understands 🥺 the frustrations and the bending over backwards trying to understand social, emotional and everyday queues.. it’s hard.. like I am human too, sometimes all I need is for things to be worded differently, it’s not that hard, we all need exceptions but why ignore the neurodivergents..
🥺 and I don’t like being yelled so of course I’m upset.. I think today is a hide under the blanket with a plushie for the whole day kinda day, I’m so friggen upset..
@emotionalTalker2260
*hugs if ok and sends comfy blankets* I'm sorry you're having so much trouble on that front. It must be so upsetting to have people do that. I hope that gets better soon <3<3
@HealingBrokenWIngs
*hugs and takes blankets* :0
@emotionalTalker2260 , I can understand how it must have been for you emoo, I am sorry you had to face that. I do get it, I would be upset too.
* comforting hugs on your way * (if okk) ❤❤
@Aikyaa01
*hugs* 🥺 thank you 💕
@emotionaltalker2260 🐨❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
omggggg sunnnnn *koala hugs* 🐨🤗
*pokes sun* (@Sunisshiningandsoareyou 😏) read my bio😈
*koala hugs* 🐨🤗
@emotionalTalker2260
*is poked*
Omg omg omg, totally not looking realllyyyyy forward to April😛
Anddddd extremely un-excited to see adorable emo crashing in my PMs🌚
(Smh come hop over soooooon, I cannot waitttt💕💕 *koala hugssssss*)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
🌚 I’ll definitely be crashing into them, in fact, yours is the first that is being crashed into, and I am telling you now, I will be saying something that won’t even make sense XD
@emotionalTalker2260 *peeks* I know what you'll be saying
@theriverissinging
🌚 what am I saying then, I have multiple nonsense things
@emotionalTalker2260 uh like frAnch stick or kanema XD
@theriverissinging
😛 nope, not it
@emotionalTalker2260 *sobs*
@theriverissinging
*sobs with jaggu* 😭
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou might know, it’s in a different forum though, but it was one used this week
@emotionalTalker2260 *frantically browses through forum threads* 😮😮
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
🌞 the random words may be in this thread ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ click on this
maybe these words might ring a bell
sun is shining and so is emo
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
@emotionalTalker2260 *is excited* xD and super honored to know I'll be the first one. Yayyyy💕 🐨🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😈 I have so many plans for yous oldies haha, I'm coming for you's 😛 and I'm bringing alllll of my lighthearted chaos, my random kindness, and of course my funny side 😈 should warn them all that i am coming /j
written by a fruit loop who can't stop saying FrAnCh StIcKs- Emo
@emotionalTalker2260 hahaha adorable emoooo! Okay okay noted and will be well prepared with all the jellybeans to toss over at you and koala hugs to squishy youu!! Hop over soon. 😈❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😈 good good
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
sun sun sun, me found the thread where you said the first thing to me :0
Press this sun, this is the link to the thread where you said your first thing to me :p
😮 anywho, me needs to clean out my subscribed to this thread and that thread thing out ahahaha
@emotionalTalker2260
Emo emo emo, you remember our first forum interaction!? I- 🥺
Extremely nice *feels* lol! \🥰/
*koala hugs emo* 🐨🤗
Andddddd if you agree to do it for me, I can do it for you😛 (smh it really is a struggle with too many subscribed threads hahaIAmCryinghaha xD)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😛 I'm never unsubscribe from the thread with our first interaction, it's too precious \😛/ (still likey emojis?) 🤭 *giggles* *koala hugs* 🐨🤗
@emotionalTalker2260
You're just making me cry now lol, pass me some jellybeans 😭 and more koala hugs!! 🤗❤
And yes yes, me still very much likey emojis \😛/
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😭 don’t cry, you cry, I cry. *throws marshmallows*
@emotionalTalker2260 awww *tries to stop crying* 🤧 *catches and noms marshmallows* 🐨🤗🐨🤗
Did you save me some hot chocolate from the hot chocolate party too? 😃
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
:0 hot chocolate party hasn’t even happened yet
@emotionalTalker2260 smh I seee xD
*makes hot chocolate for Emo and Sun* 🥰
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
yayyyyy hot chocolate ☃️ Me loves
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
And surprisingly I have cleared out the unneeded subscribed forum posts hahaha
@emotionalTalker2260 woo that was fast, *pats head*, well done. ❤
( Now me feel inspired to do it too, and hope I don't get lost in forumland :p )
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😮 *is patted* ahahaha. Sun, quick question, how friendly is the oldie side?
@emotionalTalker2260
Aw :o I feel the most of oldie side is really nice and friendly! Perhaps not as nice and amazing as the teeniees lol, but we try :p we need awesome emo to make oldiee side even better! 🤗
Emo doesn't have to worry too much though, we take good care here. ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😮 Whoopo, bye anxiety *waves*
me is happy to hear that 😮 was having an anxiety attack thinking about ageing up, me wants to age up though, but just it’s change hahaha, me don’t like change, but also me wants to spam sun ☃️
@emotionalTalker2260
*joins in waving emo's anxiety away*
Aw I understand how scary change can be, feeling anxious about aging up is super valid, you're not alone okiee!!
It may take time to get used to things hehe, but it's still 7 cups, and many amazing people around, show 'em oldies what a doll Emo isss! And I absolutely cannot wait for the spam. 🤧❤ *changes calender to april already* (ooof, what date in april, emo? :o)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
:0 well, apparently members age up at the start of their birthday month.. so imma be a 17 year old adult for 28-29 days 😭😭😭😭 *sobs* so scary. But yeah, proper birthday is 30th of April 😮
@emotionalTalker2260
Aw I can see how scary it feels, *sobs with emo and hugs tightly* , anything new feels scary and different right? But we try, take baby steps and then with supportive people around too, it might not seem as scary as it once did, emo can do it, me believes in emo, we got this scary aging up thinggg! 💕
*Calender set to April 1st. :D and duly Birthday noted :P *
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs* 😛 me does have people I can still spam when me ages up (😌 the bonus of spamming multiple atl’s compliments hahahahaha)
@emotionalTalker2260 seee 😛 *waves away all the scary feelings too*
*hugsss* 🐨🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*sigh* me don’t like anxiety and depression.. especially when they are both around, I’m emotionally exhausted and I can’t sleep yet I am tired 🥲 I haven’t felt anxious for a couple of months now, and it’s returned :/ and depression is just a pest for me, it won’t leave me alone. But I am glad I have had a few great days in a row, but I am now back to being numb :’)
My sleeping schedule is basically non existent once again 😔 I am not able to sleep until like 2-4am once again, and it’s not really good for me as it increases my depression and makes me feel worse :/
@emotionalTalker2260 , aww noes ):
* came here after your sweet comment in my corner *
* big hugss for emoo * ❤
Not being able to sleep and depression does make things bad :/ I can understand struggling it must have been for you.. anxiety and depression do be like that sometimes
* shoos away anxiety and depression for emo * I hope it poofs soon and you're able to have good good sleep againnn. 💙
Meanwhile, anything that could help you feel better?😮❤
@Aikyaa01
*hugs* thanks for shooing anxiety and depression away. I guess I’ll be staying up till I pass out (if that happens) if not, I’ll drink coffee in the morning (as I have to go visit family) and I’ll sleep after getting back home.
i mean, I have also had like nearly a whole good week, so I’m not complaining as it was much needed, me did need a break from being numb and that was nice. But yeah, good days come and go. We all need a bit of rain to see a rainbow 💕🌈
@emotionalTalker2260 , aww I hope you still get to have some rest and good sleep and also have a good time with family.❤
And, rightly said, me agrees, totally.
@Aikyaa01
(: thank you, and in fact I did get good rest 😛
TW: angry rant!!
well.. today ahaha only half done and i am already completely fed up with it, it has me so angry..
TW: :P swearing. if you don't like swear words, please skip this post ahaha
so lets say i woke up with the best way to wake up in the world with my parents fucking gossiping about me and the fucking can't let my past interests go, like they are always bringing them up and i am fucking fed up with it because it is pure bullshit. and then i went shopping and i got popcorn (i was so happy) and then as soon as i got home, my dad started his bullshit drama again by complaining about me getting my fav food. when in fact this MF keeps eating the food i look towards eating (this also includes the food i pay for myself) and honestly i am fully sick of it. and then i go tell my mum about my plans for next weekend (am going op shopping with my friends) and my dad starts complaining about that, it's like i am not even allowed to have any fucking fun and my parents expect me to get out of the house but the isn't much fun things anyone could do with $40 dollars. i am over this fucking drama. My house doesn't even feel like a fucking home anymore. i want to fucking move out but that's impossible as i have basically no money and i need another job just to pay rent on a small house or something like that.. i hate this bullshit drama in my life
@emotionalTalker2260
aw moomoo, that sounds so very tough :c *big huggles for moomoo and love and support and extra popcorn*
im so sorry that youre having to deal with that on a daily basis. youre such a kind and compassionate person, and are so supportive, and you really dont, at all, deserve to have to constantly have anything that yoy enjoy taken away from you. it sounds like the way your parents treat you really makes you feel angry, maybe ignored too? it sounds like they arent seeing you, as a whole person, but instead trying to picj out flaws and such, completely ignoring their own flaws. they seem like people who choose to do really shitty things ): i hope youre able to get away from all that negativity soon <3
@ahhhhelpimalive
*huggles liv* 😢 yeah it’s basically everyday, and they expect me to come out of my room but when I’m literally facing emotional abuse everyday, I don’t think I’d want to leave my room very often.
@emotionalTalker2260
it completely makes sense that you dont want to face them, knowing that youre just going to end up feeling hurt or overwhelmed or angry afterwords, and it sucks that they cant see how much they hurt you
@ahhhhelpimalive
*nods head* 😮
Hehe totally Not having a breakdown
@emotionalTalker2260 😢❤️
@theriverissinging
😢 *hugs* 💕
@emotionalTalker2260 *hugs* ❤️
@theriverissinging
😛 emo drew (*cough* edited *cough*) a galactic sloth and a rainbow sloth to cope 😮