in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
somewhere online a lot of people have been talking bad about cups and showing screenshots and memes etc
and one of my best friends was in one of the screenshots itās so horrible.
and there are such horrible and disgusting Ā stuff happening
a girl was getting stalked and saād she met her abuser on cups which isnāt the sites fault ofcourse but ugh ew
so many screenshots from the rooms with the craziest things said in themĀ
someone made a whole series just about how horrible the environment is here
and Iāve watched videos about why people left
one sort of mean meme targeted at someone on here
Iām not agreeing itās just, sad
@iloveyouxx ive seen those š¬ i dont think cups is perfect, but i feel like people give it way too little credit. Its definitely better than our irl society imo anyways-
@unassumingEyes
i was caught up writing a long post in another tab sorry T^T no I agree and youāre right our society irl isā¦amazing :>/sar wonderful.Ā
some people come on here to hurt but a lot come to helpšand sometimes I think about how everyone here is still everyone irl. itās hopeful but most of the time I think about it when stuff is going on in rooms and it feels like something that would happen irl or at schoolĀ
cups isnāt perfect but I think being here is worth it and there are still people helping and people being helped and new friends and people that care about you so, worth itā¤ļø
@iloveyouxx Agreed ā¤ļø short answer, but you said what i think literally xD and yeah, irl society has...work to do. Alot of work. Tons of work. Just break everything down and start over atp-
I had all the devices here hidden and no oneās allowed to let me use theirs anymore. I didnāt do anything I guess itās just that Iāll somehow find a way to endanger myself?
sorry for all the late replies idk when Iāll be able to come on again but Iāve been tryingĀ
my aunt sent my device over to my dad because she couldnāt fix itĀ
my dad got fired from his second job in this area and apparently thereās another situation with the case but no oneās really gonna tell me about it. I donāt wanna know I guess. the case officially closes tomorrow
anyywhoo :p itās okay. I just wanted to take the chance to come on here and say all this
I slept at (almost) 2pm yesterdayĀ
and woke up at 1:03am today :ā)
thats 11 hours without being in pain. or being hungry or bothered or scared.Ā
felt so surreal waking up then I didnāt know where I was
I wanna go back to sleep.ļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æ
ice died today.
@iloveyouxx Oh no! This is such sad news š Ice was such a pretty cat. I bet Ice's buddy is feeling alittle lost too
@iloveyouxx šš©·
@unassumingEyes
everytime I try typing I start cryingand I don't want to be sad or anything it's just a lot for me I guess. ice was really special.ā¤ļø
thank youš©·šfor being here and :p I was gonna say I could really use having someone to talk to and then I can't really talk, but thank youš¤you make me feel less alone š¤
@mytwistedsoul
@iloveyouxx *offers safe hugs* š It's ok to be sad. I'm sorry that you are of course but it's understandable to feel upset. Animals are special. Tbh I like animals more than I do most people - which sounds kind of horrible I guessĀ
@mytwistedsoul i dont think that sounds horrible š¤ people are, to put it nicely, very...complex, in many different ways. Animals are relatively easier i guess you could say.Ā
@iloveyouxx *offers hugs and pancakes š„š„*Ā
@unassumingEyes Complex is a very good way to put it! You're absolutely right too. They are very complex. Animals are typically easier to "read" than people are š
1:47am.
i thought it was later honestly
the girl I talked about before the one that was involved in all that dramaĀ
Iām switching lead classes with her
Iāve been really really trying to avoid thinking about school
and everyone kept bringing it up or reminding me all summer break
and someone just reminded me to be annoying. itās not funny whyāre you ruining my summer break when it was never even good in the first placeĀ :')
but um. apparently the girls been messaging me and every time she would my dad would delete the messages and I just genuinely kept convincing myself of well stuff and I mean sheās not really a āgoodā person and if she did make new friends sheād leave with no second thoughts and she doesnāt actually care about you at all and she makes sure you know it but you canāt really not love her I mean I love her sheās my friend and she didnāt deserve any of the things that happened to her so I like being there for her even if Iām being used to temporarily make her feel less alone. I care about her. sheās my friend :ā)Ā
i donāt know why but the way she talks is so funny to me :p everything I say sheād just reply with (in caps) ārightttā āfrrrā āstopppā āreallllā and for some odd reason when people talk like that itās just funny to me as in
not them but more like :p the fact they talk like that :pĀ
she makes me feel less alone too.
it makes me sad thoĀ
I donāt know.
my grandfathers in the hospital.
feel like Iām existing wrong.
