in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
oh btw i skipped skl at some point I don’t remember when but don’t worry it was scary as *** I’m not doing that again 😭 I did it like twice
oh also I’m addicted to vape 🤷♀️
I love music on a different level now
music >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
(travis scotttt >>>>)
I forgot to say I have to go
also I randomly started getting nauseous
like I feel car sick
and my head hurts
and
anyways
i need to
i have to to
byee<33
Could you eat something when you get home...maybe that would help...
Ill reply to the stuff later but
i forgot where the crisis lines were 😭
I kinda need one
right now
and
I looked it up
obviously
but it’s like idk
none of those are what im looking for
trust I’ve like went through all of those at some point
and
im looking for that thing that like 😭 maybe im talking abt that time a listener reported me but like it was this big list of all sorts of resources like numbers and textlines and stuff and for different countries it was here but I can’t find it anymore
oh brb
@iloveyouxx Not sure if it will help, but I found this. (Yes, it's a safe link)
@slowdecline48
tysm <3 I figured it out back then but this was rlly interesting :0 I just read all of it xD and I don’t like reading. I just needed something to focus on (which..I can’t. I can’t focus…on anything.) but yeah this did help fs 🤍
how do u feel nauseous if u haven’t ate anything. Is it possible. like not just nauseous like ur literally abt to throw up a three course meal and like you can’t do anything normal or normally because of the nausea. like you can’t talk (i can’t either way cause I lost my voice-) or walk and lying down makes u feel worse but sitting upright makes u feel even worse and there’s no way ur gnna stand
nd like
u can’t drink water
is this nausea or nausea nd smth else ;-;
im not sick.
i don’t even wanna eat tho. first few days I was set on intense exercise and no eating and it didn’t rlly take me a long time to realize I rlly can’t do it. or like…I can’t do as much as I though I could (for he exercise) like my body idk how to explain it I do push myself I do idc if im so tired or my legs are shaking or
oh i have to go lemme speed this up
but yeah it’s not that tho it’s like
i literally can’t. so now im starving myself even more
and
bro what whatre they saying bro 😭
i cant
okay i have to go bye
@iloveyouxx like stomach pain, you can get nausea from hunger. Speaking from experience, no medical knowledge, but you know that
Hope youre okay <3
No one can do intense exercise without eating. Whatever gave you the idea that you could?...
I couldn't do that & would never try. The best athletes out there stay fueled up...like five to seven small meals a day, for a lot of 'em. It's safe to say neither of us is anything close to a pro athlete of any kind.
Starving yourself is not a good idea, Nadia. Sit down & have a salad & fruit juice, at least.
@unassumingEyes @slowdecline48
I wrote a long *** *** and the whole page restarts and it’s gone 😭
this is so sad I wrote a lot 😭 that I would’ve actually wanted to be read 😭
but it’s okay ***. to summarize as much as I can because I can genuinely feel myself lose energy to type rn
but I had to go out nd meet w some of my family this morning bc they jst got back from traveling and like idk
bro 😭 I was gnna vm nd somehow send it here in a link or smth cs my fingers are getting tired but my dads here now
so yeah we were gnna have breakfast and I ate and there was nothing wrong with anything I ate but I had to excuse myself nd spent like 15 minutes in the bathroom throwing up.
a lot of blood. I still have a problem with that :’) but yeah and all the food I ate
nd
i feel
drained
nd
weaj
okay I can’t anymore bye
<33
I didn’t even know that word censored
@iloveyouxx Hey, what's happening?
Did you eat dinner? If you did then you kept it down, didn't you?
...this post-meal puking has got to stop. You do understand that, right?
@iloveyouxx the first thing- felt. I wrote a response to slow today...huge...
Its gone- i really dk if i can write another xD
The other thing...hope youre feeling better rn. Lots of love and optional warm hugs
@unassumingEyes Whatever you'd meant the response to be, I hope there was a good reason for it...all of which is to say: did I p1ss you off? 😕
@slowdecline48 oh dear, no ofcourse not. Should have been more clear, yeah?
No, i was just thanking you for the advice- im really kinda going blindly in my religious studies, so its well appreciated. I'd already been avoiding the new testement, but now i know what to actually go for. Thank you!
And i did ask, are you christian? Its probably obviously, but Id rather not assume xD
Your wise, detailed replies are always appreciated, dont hold back on us!
🤣 "Christian"? Me? Nooo, never been one.
I've met quite a few Christians in my life, & had some interesting experiences. A few were unpleasant or annoying; other experiences were eye-opening; a couple times it was just ridiculous. 😆 Met a lot of Christians when I lived in Texas (no surprise there) & more where I am now (ditto), & some of them were my friends. I have studied some of Christianity's history, particularly that of the later Catholic church & the early history of what would later be the Eastern Orthodox church. Fascinating stuff, & it meshes nicely with "Western civ". I've been inside a few different churches, even...but I never bought into their faith. Nor have I ever been seriously tempted, though I've seen it do a lot of good for its followers.
@slowdecline48 my reply didnt send, again, and i forgot what i said now.
so, can i know, any religion? or opinion on God? dont worry about offending me, i have no opinion of the matter as of yet.
@iloveyouxx sorry for invading. also, could you keep drinks down? milkshakes, the like. get something in.
….
uhm.
I feel like I’ve been depending on ppl too much lately