Rattled to my core
Trigger warning, for reference to violence.
I am still shaking…, I had someone a supposedly new member post hate on one of my forum posts. I flagged them and and tried to find someone to help me with this and in the process I didn’t think of what I was saying and the listener just left on me. I am so sorry that I did that to them .
With all the violent hate crimes going on, these simple statements this person made out of ignorance really shook me to the core. I hope nobody else had to experience anything like that from that person.
I am trying to keep myself from going into a full blown panic/anxiety fit. I am more angry at and disappointed in this individual for coming to this community and attacking vulnerable people.
I don’t know what the proper etiquette for this kind of thing is of who I turn to for help in situations like this.
Because of the woman in me that I have chosen to not bring to the forefront and because I was dumb enough to post the honest truths about me, I was attacked in this wonderful community and maybe because I am still shaking and still so upset by this I can’t find the right direction to go to help me with this
I am thinking about deleting this account because of this . I am just a little bit scared. I don’t know what to do.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I’m sorry this happened to you. I have experienced this. I flagged their post with enough info for admins to take care of it. If it was a live conversation, blocking the person with sufficient info for the admins to take action will probably suffice. I know it’s discouraging to have this happen. In the incident I experienced, the bully seemed to get bored because no one was reacting and I believe the admins pretty swiftly kicked the bully off the site.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami Sorry, there were a number of posts that were deleted. Sometimes people come here just to troll.
I would hope that in general listeners would be supportive.
In settings if you feel like you want a break you can but your account on break if you want.
Little aside, this thread was cross posted and we don't allow duplicate posts so the other was deleted.
@AffyAvo Thank you. I appreciate that you reached out , I am thankful for your kindness.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I hope you're feeling a bit safer here again! IF something like that does happen in the forums again, flagging is best as there's a whole team who can respond. You're welcome to tag me to a thread though too!
Thank you, if I do stay, which I am really doubtful about, I will try and remember that. Your kindness and compassion is greatly appreciated.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I hope you stay! I think a lot of us here who have gotten to know you a little through your posts would also hope you stay.
@helpfulAvocado7912 Thank you so much. That is a wonderfully beautiful thing to say. I am not sure what I am going to do. I’m not exactly sure what I am doing period . I am so lucky to have people like you be a part of my journey. Thank you.
@AffyAvo I just reread what you wrote and I don’t understand the tagging you to a thread part. What is that? Thank you
@Iamwhoiamwhoami like what you did here, but you can do it anywhere in the forums. Using @ immediately before someone's username tags them, so they are likely to see it.
@AffyAvo. Thank you. That sounds simple enough other than remembering the name but I will figure that part out. Thank you . I am truly grateful for your reaching out to me today.
I think I owe that troubled person a thank you. They made it painfully clear that my future doesn’t include emotions and positivity. I’m not deserving of that kind of a chance at happiness. The fact that I believe something so absurd as being that way, Science is always 100%right. It would be impossible, but even if it happens then that makes me a freak so I should be treated badly by all. I’m not like everyone else so I deserve to be treated like I am trash.
Just look at how messed up I am . I’m being punished for believing I am a part of that community. I’m deserving of all the pain and misery that comes my way.
