Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
  1. Forum
  2. LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support
  3. [FTM] lost and confused

[FTM] lost and confused

User Profile: shyWalker5389
shyWalker5389 February 12th, 2025

So I've known I was trans since age 12. I'm 18 now, and I've wanted to medically transition, but I don't know how to go about this since I don't have a job and probably won't be able to get one any time soon due to school related reasons. It feels like I'm never going to be able to medically transition and me being in a red state doesn't help I feel lost and hopeless

4
User Profile: Elephi
Elephi February 12th, 2025

@shyWalker5389

I know that it feels hopeless right now, but don't give up! I'm proud of you for hanging on since you were 12! Because I know how painful it can be to go through life inauthentically. I have faith that, now that you're an adult, you'll be able to find a way to get the treatment that you need, even though the fight for that freedom is under attack right now. We won't disappear! Feel free to drop me a message when you're feeling disheartened. We'll keep on fighting for the wellness of our community! 

1 reply
User Profile: shyWalker5389
shyWalker5389 OP February 12th, 2025

Thank you for the kind words it gives me a little hope

load more
User Profile: Aayla
Aayla February 12th, 2025
@shyWalker5389 it's really tough, not being able to fully live your identity. Lacking that kind of freedom surely takes a toll on you. You've come a long way, and you still have a long road ahead. That can be frustrating and disheartening, but it also means that there are opportunities ahead that you just can't see yet, but you will find them along the way.

Community helps: being able to connect with the trans community, sharing experiences, feelings and tips can be a great support, especially if you're able to do that in person. If there are LGBT circles near you, you might give it a shot and try to get in contact with them.

Also, even if you can't yet transition, you can still experiment with other ways to express your gender: through clothing and hairstyles, small ways to feel better in your own skin, but also surrounding yourself with people that are willing to accept you as you are and address you with the correct pronouns and name. And one day, hopefully, you'll also have the means to financially support your transition.

The political and social environment might work against you, but the community has always found ways to support each other and arrange a resistance against oppression. You can be part of this story, too. 
1 reply
User Profile: shyWalker5389
shyWalker5389 OP February 12th, 2025

Thank you I'll try looking into how to masculinize my voice and work on a haircut

load more
*Support Forum Disclaimer
My communities
Community guidelines
Report an issue
Talk to an expert therapist
Hello! My name is Melissa and I am a licensed psychologist, providing mental...
Talk to Melissa Now