I lost my ability to think deeply.
I'm a man 20 years old. I play chess online. Once I played in an arena that was streamed on twitch. One guy was commentating on my game which was a rapid game 15mins + 5s per move. I rewatched it later. When me and my opponent were low on time he called it 'bullet' which is a very fast time control where you don't think that much and just win on time. From this time I have issues thinking and trying my best, now I completely lost the ability to think and I feel like whenever I try to think, I need to do it 'by force' rather than naturally. I would like to recover my ability to think back but I really don't know how. I really don't like this how they called it bullet and it's an unwanted/intrusive thought. It tells me to not think. It feels like something prohibits me from thinking or that I can't do it. How to stop thinking about it so that it doesn't bother me anymore?
@FangBS02
I think, it's because you are putting pressure on yourself and overthinking it.
Just allow yourself the time and space to enjoy the game again and get back into your normal rhythm without over analysing things 💚🤗
Hello Fang. This is my respectful opinion as a layman who (disclaimer) knows quite little about pseudoscience: I don’t think deep thought happens in a vacuum. There is evidence that stuff like smell being associated with a memory is strongly linked to good recall. It seems that there are a lot of sensations that go into thinking. It reminds me of a part from 2005’s Charlie and the Chocolate Factory where Willy Wonka experiences a similar episode of “brain fog”. He basically says despite his genius he can’t make good chocolate anymore because he is upset because of Charlie’s rejection. I might suggest that Chess is causing similar bad emotions that are affecting your mood.
I am also an occasional chess player (1700 elo on Lichess), and among my hobbies I have observed that it’s the most affected by mood. I might suggest diversifying your hobbies to include creative and generally pleasant activities like reading, film or music. Hope you can get on “the zone” for Chess.
Whoops, not pseudoscience. I meant neuroscience.
@FangBS02
I'm sorry this happened to you. Chess is a strategic game. Perhaps step away from it for a while, or play in real life in a relaxed way for a while. You will recover, think positively.
@FangBS02
I think what you are describing is that you have become self conscious about your playing. It sounds like you might be worried about what other people think about how you play. And that's got you thinking about how you play. And all that thinking is getting in the way of thinking about other things.
This is all totally normal. We are a social species. The opinion of others' matters.
My experience is that thoughts and feelings are heavily intertwined and affect each other. Maybe giving the feelings a bit of space and recognition might free up your thoughts?
