Mindfulness Daily Check-In December 10, 2017
Mindful Body Check-In
Hello, everyone 
Today, lets practice mindfulness by checking-in with our bodies!
Take a minute or two today to be fully present to your body. Recognize that you are a whole person, even if some body parts arent functioning properly or if youre experiencing some pain. Accept whatever your body is telling you or whatever you feel without judging the experiences as good or bad. It is okay to just be how you are, right now.
After finding a comfortable position for sitting, reclining, or lying down, what is your body telling you today? Does it need some rest, nourishment, and/or exercise? Do you feel any aches, warmth, cramps, tightness, or itches? Feel free to share your experiences in this thread! 
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@EmunahHere
Thank you Emu for this Checkin. ❤️
Well, I am recovering from flu and my body and mind seem like bit numb sort of feeling.
I want to work actively on things and my different projects but my body not actually matching the pace. It taking time to regain the pace. And I am just flowing with the wind. 🙁
@ASilentObserver
Sorry you had to deal with the flu ❤️ Hang in there and take your time getting back up to speed. Your projects will still be waiting for you 😊
@EmunahHere I noticed my shoulders were tense and held up, so I released them. My scalp is itchy because I need a shower. My body feels gross and sweaty.
@Zeraphim
Thank you for checking-in ❤️ it feels nice when we notice our tense areas and adjust our bodies to relax them!
Hi everyone
today I feel like a prisoner in my own head. My head is about to explode
@scarletPear1945
Scarlet, I am sorry that you feel like a prisoner today ❤️ Hugs to you. 🤗 Are you able to do some self-care to alleviate this feeling?
@EmunahHere
I have been trying for the last 4 days and I don't feel any better. I have done the self-help lessons and I really feel so full and lost.
Tried the Mindfulness group and They recognized my presence. But my questions went unnoticed and unanswered.
@scarletPear1945
I am so sorry, Scarlet ❤️ it sounds like the last days have been very difficult, and you
@EmunahHere
Thank you so much. I don't do well at all in group chats. It's all too fast and kind of confusing. That was very nice of you to respond.
I have been in a real funk since my Therapist have been fighting back and forth. Left me feeling Isolated and alone. Very depressed for a few days can't sleep or eat. I had cut her off and stopped the therapy for the second time. I felt that she was very upset and said something that really cut and hurt me. So I have been trying to give myself therapy. She did not respond to me for several days and today she was here for a few moments to tell me that it is all me. I can believe part of it could be me but only because of her choice of words that trigger flashbacks.
In the Mindfulness session, the video talked about anger. That is a very big issue for me. I was told by my doctor that I never allow the anger before I escalate to rage. Destructive rage so I don't allow my self to feel that emotion. Which is still bad because I internalize it and it affects me physically. I felt I had the right to be upset when someone tells you they get irritated when people meaning me fake a relationship. All of this came about when I said: I hope you are taking care of your self. Her response was I wonder why it is so important for you to know how I feel. She said she was perfectly capable of taking care of her self and this is not about her but me. I felt that was a very tacky response. So for a few days, I have been given the silent treatment, to one reply at the end of the night. I am pissed off was pisted and very depressed. I don't want to fuss and fight with her. I need the help not judgments or assumptions about my intent on saying something. So she responded and wants to work it out. this is our 3rd run in and if I cancel one more time believe me I will never try therapy again. So I have been all day trying to calm my self and swallow my feelings and give this one last try. I don't know how to proceed when I feel like I got to walk a tightrope to keep her from going off. I feel her fuse is shorter than mine.
TOTALLY BAFFLED AS WHAT MY ROLE IS AS CLIENT, CAN YOU EXPLAIN CLIENT THERAPIST ROLE WHERE I CAN UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM GOING WRONG? Mindfulness is not helping me
@scarletPear1945
Scarlet, do you mind if I PM you tomorrow to chat about the things that you
@EmunahHere
no, I don't mind, and thank you
@scarletPear1945
It looks like Listeners can
@EmunahHere
hello I had to go to the doctor and my eyes are dilated so I can't see to clear right now
I feel happy. I have been dissociated for the past few months and struggling to deal with my mental health for a while. My mother and father divorced a year and a half ago now. I had dealt with a lot before and especially after they split. I am only starting to fully recover and move on. I have been diagnosed and offered therapy though I had been told it starts in a year. It would start in a year as there is a waiting list to start therapy. I have had depression for at least 5 years and anxiety for at least 4 years. I had experienced dissociation since I was young though I have only recently had to deal with severe depersonalisation and derealization. I have also only recently started dealing with severe OCD. I have had both OCD, derealization and depersonalisation for the past 2 years. I feel rather numb right now. I don't feel good as I haven't been open for a while about what I am thinking,feeling and experiencing. I am a very confident person, though when I am dissociated I can become very much like a zombie. I have no thoughts in my head, I lack the amount of creativity I have when not dissociated and feel nothing. I feel like im in space and I feel very disconnected from myself and those around me. My dissociatuon and anxiety cause me to have bad panic attacks fairly often. Im aware when they are happening that they are temporary and in my head. When I am having these panic attacks I have sucidal thoughts and feel so uncomfortable that I often do not complete my OCD rituals. I tend to turn off the lights in my bedroom,lay down and close my eyes which often ends in me falling asleep. I also dislike sleeping and tend to stay up for days before going to bed as I have been waking up riddled with anxiety and completely dissociated. Working on being present is great as it reminds me that I should be working on myself and being happy. Whether or not I reach the point of meditation or mindfulness isn't always important. I usually just try to sort my headspace out. Right now I feel uncomfortable. For a while I had been allowing my mental disorders to control me. I am no longer going to allow them to control my thoughts. I am in control now. This post is more so for myself than anybody else. This is for the future me to look at and realise the position is been in. To remind myself to work hard and keep pushing forward. To remind myself that giving up is not an option. Have a great Christmas. You are beautiful and deserve to be happy and be at peace with yourself and connected to yourself. :)
@EmunahHere I am in my easy chair and feeling my back straight and then I relax my breath and feel a release. Thanks for this wonderful checkin post.
There is a dull pulsing sensation in my head and in my foot. My eyes are a bit sore and my stomach is slightly burning. I think my body says "time for dinner and rest/sleep" :-)
