Tired 😪

I’m sick of needing to be patient with others. But also myself, I suffer with all these things, that cause me stress. What good, has being patient gotten me. Looking back, there are times, I wish I could have screamed at some people. Those times, I did speak up not scream but say what was on my mind; others acted cowardly and tried to deny their wrongs. While, I admit, I should have kept some unkind, vulgar words to myself, I don’t think it was wrong to tell the truth. I’ve never gotten violent with others and have repented so many times for wrong doings; even trying to get along and apologize to people, I don’t even like. It hasn’t been enough, I am still exhausted and unable to function. I’m 27, unable to be do so many things without getting exhausted. I want shout “don’t you think, I’m exhausted too!” “You keep complaining about everything, but atleast you have your health and don’t tire and zone out. No I don’t miss, that friend nor that one. Seem to have made new friends and found support in women’s ministry. While, I don’t go to church, maybe at times. My faith has grown but I cry out “why am I still in so much pain,” just a question. 🤍