Overwhelmed.... Shutting down.... Can't move

Bag vegetable soup for freezer.

I totally get it! I didn't realize my issue was ADHD. I have a grown child and just got diagnosed with a bunch of mental health issues. My whole life I wondered why I just couldn't get myself to do things, especially at home. It's like a switch just turns off. It's not hard, but I feel so blah and even resistant. I feel so alone with these issues. Than you for sharing.

Stop thinking...

Make egg cassarole and then chili.

Stop thinking... Don't let the monkeys in my head... just keep going.

Finished eggs and got chili simmering (Kitchen a mess!)

Loosen car wheels and jack one side up.

I looked up energy foods... Here's the share.

Top foods to eat if you want to increase stamina and energy for exercising

Bananas
These are one of the great snack options to use prior to exercise to increase energy levels, stamina and strength. Having two bananas before a workout would give you enough energy to perform a good one-hour intense workout. The magnesium in bananas also helps boost your metabolism.

Brown Rice
Brown rice is a great source of carbs which provide us with energy to increases exercise endurance. Brown rice is absorbed slowly and a good source of fibre and carbs hence keeping you energized throughout the day.

Fatty Fish
Fatty fish is an extremely nutritious food. Fish is rich in protein, vitamins, minerals, healthy fats and omega 3. This would not only help you to perform your exercise with better form but also enhance the growth of muscle.

Yoghurt
Adding yogurt into your daily snack plan is an excellent way to increase energy. Moreover, you can add berries, oats, bananas etc to not only add flavour but also other health benefits. Yoghurt is a good source of protein, vitamins B6 and B12, and minerals which are essential to release energy and keep you active.

Sweet Potato and Beans
The quality of carbohydrates you choose is very important because they’re essential for staying focused, give you more strength and give you bigger bursts of energy before exercise. Sweet potato is a great source of complex carbs that will help improve your overall performance for that workout.

Dry Fruits
Dry fruits are easily digestible foods that are rich in proteins, vitamins, minerals and dietary fibre. Dry fruits make for a delicious and healthy snack.

Dark Chocolate and Peanut Butter
Dark chocolate and peanut butter are great fuel for a workout if consumed in moderation. Whether you’re going for a jog, doing a workout, hiking, you can always snack on a bit of dark chocolate. Before your workout, an ounce or two of premium dark chocolate is enough to give you a kick without burdening your system with an unnecessary amount of sugar or fat. Peanut butter is also recommended before exercise as it contains protein, carbs, to perfectly stay fuelled for your workout.

@IsayUncle

I would sort of disagree with this, apologies for that. You cannot stop thinking whether you want it or not, you can distract yourself from the things and think about something else. The goal should be not to think about something for a very long time and instead of focusing your thinking to something productive and meditating in order to shift your focus. And it all comes with practice and happens step by step.

Hey, thanks for the feedback and the researched tips! My thoughts are like yours, but 40-60 per minute. No wonder I'm exhausted all the time. Sometimes, we do what we need to just to quiet those, right?

As every day passes and I miss obligations and deadlines I vow not to make anymore promises until I can build a routine. I need my routine. if I cannot do anything else... I must have a routine. I see a strong routine as a strong foundation where all that is important is completed before promising my time and energy to other things.

@IsayUncle

aww

For the past week i've been having epic dreams of failure.

I wish I had the time to share them in their entirety. So detailed.... So real....

Waking up, but feeling like a hopeless loser. BUT i've worked so very hard for the past few years, and have aquired numerous advantages for something good.

In my dream last night, it ended with my ex telling me that I was suffering from the human laziness syndrome. These bad dreams are feeding into my already deep depression.

I'm losing.... tried to do the right thing, get some meds and mental help... more epic failure but not because of me..... 

I see the date of this first post is 2022 and I can't believe after everything that I've achieved, I'm back in the same boat in 2025.

I'm so very tired........ Fight or Flight?

Fight.... Back to the basics..... Core balance chores, cleanliness and order.

Where to start?, What a mess i got myself into. I do not have financial security. Forced to work but cannot seem to get ahead or take care of lifes basics while try to work also. I'm feeling too old to keep trying. Maybe sell all I own, sell all my dreams away and dissapear into the world, embracing my insignificance.

Back to the basics today.... Get dressed.

A funny part of last nights dream (probably Elon Musk influenced). Throughout the entire dream, a background theme, was waiting for a rocket to go across the sky. Finally it did, but it had the effect of those old Buck Rogers films. Kind of flying sideways, tilted up with flames coming out the sides of the wings. The funny part is, as the flames left the wings, the flames turned into metal panels that fell from the sky. My brother-in-law was running across the yard to pick them up for collectors items. I was thinking to myself that I did not need to collect any more junk. 

(Real Life) ALL my junk in my yard is a constant reminder of my failed ideas and aspirations.

OK, I'm going to try to re-engage the fight. 
It'll be hard because everything, and, "I MEAN EVERYTHING", is in such grand disorder. Back to the basics! Get clean... home and person.