Surprised how I’m taking care of myself during this depressive season/episode

I’m not sure what this is, I think it’s been lying dormant a while, but now that it’s seeming to come to a head, I’m surprised how I’ve been caring for myself. It kind of stuns me and makes me wonder what it means and how it incorporates itself into it. But while feeling so down I’ve taken more showers, exfoliated, used my favorite body cream, been more on top of my skincare. Like I feel I have something to hope for in the future I’m just not there yet so I have to take care of myself in the hopes I makes it there. I’m not sure what it means but I’m grateful.