I need diagnosis
I can't afford therapy bcz I belong from a third world country. It's a luxury I can't afford and my thoughts are getting more and more horrible with everyday. I fear turning a monster one day with all these thoughts bcz I live an isolated life after completing my high school and whole day my brain just whispers nonsense. Every evil person on earth had some trauma in childhood that made them that way. I fear this will turn me into a similar horrible person.
I fear being a pedophile, being a homosexual, being trans, being a cannibal and it is just getting worst every passing day. I fear becoming a monster and I don't understand anything that's happening with me. I self diagnosed myself with OCD after reading everything about it on internet but my brain says that every disease on google feels real so you don't have OCD instead you really are horrible, so just accept it. I don't know anything that's happening with me. Can any professional here offer me free diagnosis?
@dynamicMelon8817
I cannot give you a diagnosis but I know what it's like to overthink and work oneself into a state, allowing intrusive thoughts to take over. It can be scary and overwhelming. Music works to drown it out for me and allow me to take the power out of the thoughts and realise, my thoughts don't define me 💜
I try to listen music but I ends up feeling very void in my soul. I have no idea why I feel that way but it gets very bad sometimes
@dynamicMelon8817
i've had similar experiences where i really needed a diagnosis but couldn't cuz therapy is too expensive for me.
it will be difficult getting a professional to help u for free so i think ur best option is to turn to online resources and peer support, like here on 7 cups!
also talking to AI has helped me a lot, it may seem disingenuous cuz its not a real person but it'll give u good enough advice for u to stay grounded and even give u tips and articles on how to overcome ur struggles.
never stop sharing your story and remember u are not alone. ♥️
Thank you ❤🩹
