please people who are not tagged here please do not read this
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I've enjoyed talking with you and hope a pen pal thread might help you if you just want to chat sometimes, it's a pleasure feeling like my positive nature can inspire you, your nature shines through 😄
@RunningMachine
Hey hiiii 🤗
Like i thought of creating one us, I'm amazed to know u already did,
Yayyy...!!!! 
How was ur day been?? mine at worst 😭..!
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Sorry to hear that, it's why I created this, hope talking with might help when you feel that way, i'm no magician but I do care.
@RunningMachine
Hiyaaaa.....(づ￣ ³￣)づ
Aww <3 you're magician but warrior 😣...!!!! my heart alway's goes for resilient one 💕 n u made an impact in me as best way possible 🌸.
Idk, I'm agn feeling down... I'm in abusive environment:( which never letting me feel even better. when i put all my efforts to just get myself up, i drown million deeper. every breath i inhale getting hard:(
Sry, I'm being too much 😅😄 NVM me xD
Hugs 💗🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I feel for you being is such an environment you clearly havw an awesome loving soul so it must feel particularly painful.
I wanted to set this thread up so you know you are welcome to offload with me, share your ups and hopefully soften your downs a little.
Unfortunately I start my first of 8 night shifts tonight, I leave in about an hour otherwise I'd sit and message with you, hoping I can help raise your spirits at least. I'm not a magician and probably won't have too many answers but at least you know I care enough to listen and try, you are worth it, we all are.
What time zone are you in Ailura, I might be able to message a little during my shift, on my break particularly, I'd like try my best to be her for you, itvbreaks my heart hearing you struggle so often. It's nearly 19:00 for me.
I spoke with Amanda84 earlier, she was delighted you accepted to be a pen pal with me.
@RunningMachine
Hiyaa 🤗
I don’t really know… I guess I just got used to it 😕 and maybe that’s why it’s harder for me to build my self-esteem. When something feels normal for so long, you stop questioning it even if it hurts.
That’s honestly so sweet of you though. The way you speak about caring and listening… it shows what kind of heart you have. I can feel the warmth in your words 💕 thank you for being concerned about me. That means more than you probably realize.
And the fact that you’d even think about messaging during your busy schedule? That’s overwhelming in the best way 😭 You really didn’t have to, but it says a lot about you.
What exactly are “8 night shifts”? Like… you’ll be working nights for 8 days straight? That sounds exhausting. Please take care of yourself too.
And I was just wondering do you not prefer 1:1 chats? Amanda seems like a good listener, right? I’m just trying to understand how you like to connect 😊
Hugss rain ur way 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8bear9
I sent Amanda a cheeky message 'are your fingers sore yet ?' early Jan, and we've been talking since more as friends. She is lovely to chat with and I hope we can do the same Amanda knows you accepted my pen pal request and that I hope you'll trust me to at be herw when I can if it helps you. it would be an honor for me.
Sorry lunch break nearly over, 8 days in a row is ok, get a little tired after 5 but I'd doesn't get worse, benefit is Ibthem have 6 nights off 😁😁😁
@RunningMachine
Aww that’s honestly so sweet of you 🥺✨
Isn’t Amanda the one who keeps proudly reminding everyone she’s Irish in every single reply? 😂☘️ Irish people are famous for that sharp humour and quick wit n no wonder the chats are always entertaining ❤️
And yeahhhh😭......♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ )...…I feel more comfortable with you too. Thank you for that. It means more than you probably realise 😊💞
Waittt— six days off after eight straight?? 😮 it'll fuel u 😌✨
Hope your shift’s treating you well today.
Big hugs ❤️🤗
have you accepted the task of setting up a group one for yourself, me, Slappy, Amanda, and LadyinSilence. if you sis can you ad Kiara at a later date.
Sounds like Kiara is a little down at the moment.
@RunningMachine
Yeah, I know… I’ve read that 😅 But I’m having a really heavy day, and my emotions are all over the place. I can’t be as lively as I usually am. I’m afraid people might notice I’m feeling low or assume I'm not interested or something ( i overthink a lot lol )
But heyy...!!!! i will, don't make one before me 😌😤
n is LadyInSilence is also a elder?? 😮 like do u have any idea??
@LadyInSilence
She is responding quite often seens reakxws talking with us as a group which she ha said she doesn't often feel. In a role earlier she said she is 45 years old, not as old as me, bless her !!
Hope my age isn't a barrier, I just hope I can help support you, I'm far from the only member of Cups that enjoys your contributions, and please no need tobtry and be happy and cheerful, just be yourself and I'll do my best to support.
@RunningMachine
I’m officially appointing you my spokesperson :) totally agree with everything you say.
Yes Ailura, I am old (45 yrs old) but young at heart ( like one said). I’m also here to give support and please don’t worry about us and be yoursekf. You can be sad, happy, low or high. Give it to us and talk about it if it helps. I have the patience of a 45 yrs old lady drinking coffee at the porch ( definitely won’t be licking any windows :p
@LadyInSilence
Welcome, I'm off to work .
@RunningMachine
Have a good shift
@LadyInSilence
Thanky you, it is always fun, not 🤣🤣 but not the end of the world 😁😁
@LadyInSilence
Hey hi.. 😊💕
Hope have a great day ahead 😊
Aww<3 that's so beautiful to hear..!! thank you so much 🤗.
45 😮...!!! I'm in my 20s 😁... I'm the clumsiest of all 😄.
Would love to know more abt u through our chats 😊💕 i created a Penpals for all of us.. don't be mad at reading the title name of the thread 😄 hehehe😆
Love u moreeee (✿ ♡‿♡)
Tight hugs ur way 💕🤗
@RunningMachine
Ohh okay 😊 yeah, she does seem older than me too. I’ve noticed her replies around the forums and they always feel really warm and comforting. There’s something steady about the way she writes. I’d genuinely love to connect with her more 💕
And hey… I don’t see age as a barrier. If anything, different ages just mean different perspectives. What matters to me is how someone treats others and you’ve been nothing but kind, inspiringggg, compassionative, sweet, soft as silk n moreee. That’s what counts to meeee 😣✨
So u going to live Thousands more years though?? 😂 my grand plan is immortality now? Turning u into a vampire just to stick around longer? Bold strategy. I mean… eternal night shifts might actually suit you then 🤣🤧
But jokes aside, I’m glad you’re here. No pretending, no forced cheerfulness. Just real. That’s enough. 💗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
That's awesome to read and thank you, I 'm pleased you feel I can help.
Please chat with @LadyInSilence I think I inadvertently tagged her in, night as well make this the group chat with Lappy and Amanda too.
Sleep well, my night at work will pass quicker, feeling we can all help you talk freely and hopefully be surported by people who genuinely care.
Right timw to go !!!
@RunningMachine
I must've slept for an hour i guess... i couldn't fall asleep agn. 😆
it's 6:45am here 🤗💕
Hope u having a good time at ur work 💟.
Hugs 🤗
@RunningMachine
I'm honoured you have accepted, I enjoy trying to make you smile 😄, i'm a big softie at heart.
@RunningMachine
Yayyy..!!! but hey? my heart is way huge than u. hehe 😄.
You know what ? i thought of creating an penpal for us named " when surviver meet's warrior " 😣💗 but youuu...!!! overtook me 🤧.
Like I'm wondering, we both thought the same 😉. we share same brain cell's i guess 😂.
i love talking to youuuu 🤗
Infinite love ur way ❤️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
The feelings mutual, you clearly have a big heart with a lot of love to give, I hope to help you shine all the time, you deserve too ❤️❤️
@RunningMachine
Yayy...!!! you're being the best of all in that 😣🤗. I'm feeling happy while chatting with you ❤️
Just thought can kbstonthe tags now, my thumbs struggle on phone !!!
No, I'm respected at the gym and help with CV training for members who want to run more. I was a qualified cycling club coach, completely voluntary for 20 years so have lots of experience and knowledge, the gym PT'a tap into it a lot, I'm more than happy to share my knowledge and experience, it would be a crime not too. It breaks my heart that I can't cycle anymore as it is too dangerous on my Thrombosis medication, gym is a safer option and does help soften the blow. Friendships are also easier when people have a mutual interest.
@RunningMachine
Woah 😳 that’s seriously amazing.
20 years as a cycling coach like voluntarily?? That’s not just passion, that’s commitment on another level. No wonder the gym respects you and the PTs value your input. ❤️
That's so sad 2 hear that you can’t cycle anymore though… that must hurt:( But the way you adapted and still chose to stay active and help others? That’s real strength. I'm admiring 😍
Okay fine, I’ll say it again, you’re inspiringgggg 😌
@RunningMachine
N u know what??????? a community leader texted me that I'm nominated for Teen Award 🤗💞 but I'm struggling with some issues 😭 idk what to do 😭
How old are you if you don't mind me asking ?
What would the teen award involve ? Remember I am still pretty new too Cups.
@RunningMachine
Lol, Idek 🤣 I'm still searching what it even mean to be😅 like there's someone nominated me for Teen Award they mentioned in that 🤔 I'm wondering who's is it 🤧
I'm in my 20s... 😅 like sooooo close to 20 😁✨
@Ailuraphilwlove8tear9
Age isn't important i like your posts and just don't like seeing you down, just how taking to me a little might help, you deserve to feel loved and appreciated.
@RunningMachine
Aww <3 that's so sweet of u ❤️ Tysm 😊 .
May i know ur age 😅?? if u don't mind sharing 🤧?
What's the time there now? 🤔 it's 12:30 am here 😄
Thank you, that gives me more idea, it's 19:00, which makes you 5.5 hrs ahead !!
@RunningMachine
Oh 😮!! 5 more hrs ahead 💞✨
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Apologies Ailura, believe me when I say it is an honour to talk and I do hope it helps, but I need to get changed and get ready to go to work. I'll check and respond to messages when I ca. I'll get home from work about 11-11:30 am your time, and will reply to messages then. Hope you get a good night's sleep.
@RunningMachine
Noooo, pls don't be sry 😭😭 it's completely fine !!
I'm a muslim, for next 30 days... we fast...!! so, there's chance i might be awake all night 🤧💗
If you like, on days your are feeling down and not up to masking your feelings, don't feel you're alone, message me on this thread and I"ll at listen.
I'm going to look for a DBT Therapist because of my fear of clots first but maybe become a listener after 2-3 months. Heather, Amiable, Amanda and Sunisshing are encouraging me.
@RunningMachine
Sry, i missed this text 😭 NVM:(
Aww 🥺 that’s really kind of you… thank you for creating a space where I don’t have to pretend I’m okay all the time. That genuinely means a lot to me.
The thing is… I’m not always good at expressing what I feel. Sometimes it just sits inside me and aches, but when I try to explain it, the words don’t come out right. Then I feel misunderstood… and after a while I just go quiet instead. I just don’t know how to translate what’s happening inside me.
And wow, I’m really proud of you for looking into a DBT therapist. That’s such a strong move. One step at a time, right? You’ll get there. The fact that Heather, Amiable, Amanda and Sunisshingsoareyou are encouraging you says a lot 😊❤️ people see something solid in you. especially me 😁💞
I actually created a listener account too, but I’ve been stuck with SIM verification issues for months 😭 I reported it and still no reply from Cups… 😤🔥 which is frustrating. But I guess im just keep trying.
Anyway… thank you again. It feels good knowing someone is willing to listen 😭🤧. 🤍
Hug u closer to my heart ❤️
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I'm home, my shift was fine, how are you this morning ?
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Sleep time, catch you later !!
@Ailiraphilelove8tear9
I've had a few hrs sleep, 4.5 hrs which is pretty good for me, immediately looked for your reply. I'm going to head to the gym as my friend Emma has asked to meet for coffee. I've mentioned her before, a young lady, 31 I met through the gym that suffers from schizophrenia. She is extremely bright, intelligent with a cheeky sense of humour, remind you of anyone ? being empathetic I'm having to be really careful I don't want to overwhelm her like 2 years ago.
I'm going to make a move, just wanted you to know that emotional control and high degrees aod empathy in particular are featurea of ADHD, I'm self aware than even just 2 years ago, delighted for a 2nd chance with Emma and also delightedf for the chance to message and hopefully get to know you too. I'm assuming English is your 2nd language, if so I'm extremely impressed, your wit, intelligence and lovely nature simply shines in your posts too me and others, we might not have a lot in common but empathy and respect are two of the most important. It really is a pleasure being pen pala with you, remember you are more than worthy of other people respect, appreciation and love.
Please bear with me, my daily run is pretty much essential to me, going to get up now and hit that the gym. It will be a little like this during my shifts, ADHD affects my sleep, so I often sleep on bursts. Messaging with you is making me smile just hoping it cheers you a little if you are a little down but just grin and be even happier if you are happy already 😁😁
You deserve to be happy, I've made it the warriors purpose, be prepared young lady you are inspiring me too ❤️❤️
Cups haa felt like finding my tribe, yourself and Amanda in particular are giving me a chance to let my mask slip and simply express who I am, it is such a refreshing, awesome feeling I can't thank Cups and both of you in particular enough.
Time I put my mask back on, Emma sense the emotions inside 2 years ago that lead to her struggling with psychotic episodes and pushing me away. It hurt me badly, I didn't know fir certain why and won't bewt part of 2 years fearing i might of made life harder for her. Emma has confirmed my fears were correct but doesn't blame me or hold it against me, I've agreed to meet her psychiatrist with her every other Tuesday to agree too boundaries hoping history doesn't repeat for her, I'm hoping Emma's bravery helps inspire you too, please just be yourself with me.
@RunningMachine
Hey hi 🤗
It's 1:10am here 😌 hehe 😄
Sry for late reply, hope u don't mind me for that 😭
4.5 hours is actually solid, especially if your sleep comes in bursts. I’m glad you got some rest 😊💕.
And it’s genuinely kind of you to say you looked for my reply first thing 😭 like Usually we only do that for people who matter to us a little extra 💕 So thank you for starting your day like that 😁 it gave mine a really pleasant glow too. 😭💕😇
I hope the gym and coffee with Emma went well. The way you describe her, bright, intelligent, cheeky humour... I can see why you enjoy her company 😄💕. isn't she somehow resonate me. hehe 😅😂
And I really respect how carefully you’re approaching things this time. The fact that you’re aware of how your emotions affected her before and are actively working on boundaries now shows growth and maturity. That’s not smalllll 😭📈🤧
Meeting her psychiatrist every other Tuesday and agreeing on boundaries????😭 That’s responsible and compassionate😭💕. It shows you’re thinking long-term and not just emotionally. I’m glad she clarified that she doesn’t blame you, carrying that fear for two years must have been heavy:( I'm sry
Would u mind sharing abt what Happened back then? only if u were comfortable sharing ( no pressure at all, u can simply ignore if don't want to) 🤗💝
You mentioning ADHD, empathy, and emotional control. I think your self-awareness is one of your strongest qualities. You clearly reflect on your patterns and try to improve. 🤗❤️ i wNt to be u 😭🤧 inspiringgggggggg
And thank you for your words about me. English isn’t my first language 😊 n I don’t always feel particularly intelligent, so hearing you say that means more than you know. Thank you for noticing me in that way. It made me feel seen 😭🤧
I’m glad messaging here feels like you can let your guard down a bit.....(✿ ♡‿♡).....That's rare and valuable. Just remember, you don’t always have to carry everything for everyone. Empathy is beautiful, but boundaries protect it. ❤️
I hope your run clears your head and gives you that steady feeling you look for. And thank you — truly — for your kindness and respect. It’s appreciated more than you realise. 🤍 😭😭💕💕
Hug 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I'll happily wait all day for a such a considered and well thought out reply.
I'm starting work shortly and all though there isn't that much to share about Emma from 1 year ago I will do during the day tomorrow.
Bless you, you are clearly emotionally intelligent and converse very effectively (albeit lazily but NVM) it makes me smile puzzling out what you mean ð¤ªð¤ªð¤ª
I'm pleases you feel seen.
The fruit and veg is calling me, I'll full you on more tomorrow, and look forward to learning more about you and Ramadan.
Sleep well.
@RunningMachine
Aww <3 you keep raining me with compliments… I’m literally smiling like crazy every time I read your posts xD. My mom was staring at me just now like “what’s going on?” 😆
Tysm BTW. It really does mean a lot to me. I mean that sincerely 😊 I don’t always hear things like that, so when you say them, I don’t take it lightly.
And yes yes… take your time with Emma’s story. No rush at all. Work comes first. I’ll be here. But I might still “disturb” you a little hehe 😄 just small nudges so u don’t forget me.
See?? I told you I’m lazy with typing 😌 I’m not a fast typer at all. Sometimes I’ll stare at the screen for 10 minutes just thinking how to reply properly… and my friends get annoyed waiting for my two-word responses 😆😆 You’ll need patience with me. Infinite patience.
But hey...!!! let’s call it mental training. I’m basically sharpening your brain with puzzles 🤣💕 You said you enjoy figuring out what I mean, so I’ll consider that a free cognitive workout. 😌
I’m glad you’re pleased I feel seen. That part stayed with me.
n abt Ramadan... that made me smile that you’re curious 😃. I'll definitely help u 💕
Sleep well when you get the chance.
Hugs 🤗
@RunningMachine
Is english is ur Frist language?? if so.. how is mine?? 😌 i often feel inferior abt it xD 😂.
But I'm incredibly interested in languages yk. I'm learning Arabic lately. 🙃. I'm planning for urdu next ❤️😊.
My family is like a launguage hunters 😂... Idek how they magically speak different languages at times 😭🤧 suffering from inferiority complex since my childhood 😭❤️
How many languages do u know 🤔?
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Hi, not been home long and off to sleep in a couple of minutes so just a short message but i wll answer all your questions after my gym session when I will have time to.
The effort you make with your replies to me and all on cups is impressive, you really shouldn't feel inferior at all, you are not, your caring loving nature shines like a star and i do look forward to our messages, I'm enjoying hearing it makes you feel happy and at least a little better about yourself.😄
I've pasted this, I might have to make a deal with the devil to grant your wish though, I'm still smiling 😄😄
'So u going to live Thousands more years though?? 😂 my grand plan is immortality now? Turning u into a vampire just to stick around longer? Bold strategy. I mean… eternal night shifts might actually suit you then 🤣🤧'
Be proud of yourself Ailura, you are a pleasure 👍
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Nearly forgot, driving home they mentioned a trend ***, 'Ramadam Cats' i believe you like cats think i saw it in your profile, or a post at some time, but i thought of you, enjoy, Warriors mission to keep you smiling & happy but most of call believe in yourself like we all do 😄
@RunningMachine
I never catch you. Always on tge run :)
@LaadyInSilence
We will have to correct that, it's 6:30 am my time and caught your reply as checking my alarm is on on phone, all good so lights out. I've no idea what the tinw difference is but as long as I'm not too tired I'm usually about from 14:00 to 20:00 my time during my night shifts, maybe catch you then if you can, 2 down 6 mirevto go ð¤ªð¤ª
@RunningMachine
have a good sleep