Horrible. Anxiety is destroying me. My mom is schizophrenic, my father had an anxiety disorder. My life was all but destroyed as a child. I have worked so hard at low paying jobs my entire life. I have nothing. My gf attempted suicide last year and we were evicted because the police had to break down the door. Now I'm in debt that we'll never escape because i had nowhere to turn. I lived in a hotel while she was in the hospital. She is doing better. Working. I love her. She was raised in foster care and had a horrible childhood. I'm just trying to move forward and make things better for us. But I am so tired of running on this treadmill that goes nowhere. All I'm ever going to do is survive. I see friends taking vacations and having happy family gatherings and no one even knows what we've been through. I'm breaking and I can't sleep.
Overwhelmed by what I would call mental clutter.
Dying
Relieved. Proud of someone.
Very sad over the destruction in Puerto Rico and angry that we aren't receiving the help we need.
Tired and worn out from being sick for a week. I just want to stay where I am and do nothing but there is a lot to do.
I am feeling blessed, but at the same time, very isolated from the people around me. I just think that they have had enough of me, after I've complained to them about my whole shit apartment issue these last few days. Ah. I just feel like everyone hates me.
Sad that I can
Lousy
Confident, I feel so amazing after finishing my exams!
depressed, horrible and suicidal. i've been hitting my head constantly to get the horrible things out but they just won't go so i started digging my nails in my head but that didn't work either. i just can't cope anymore so i might leave soon. maybe everyone will be happier with me gone?
At a lowest point. I thought abt ending my life today
