Little better than betterday....i just waked up from sleep in the middle of the day feeling active...
You know i didnt get out my apartment for one step more than aweek...
But today it happens for know reason.
Thanks god
I feel very detached, and it scares me. I think I feel sad, but I don't know why. And that upsets me. I was doing well these last couple of weeks and know I'm like this all of the sudden. Like all the hard work I did on here didn't make a difference at all. Stupid self, stupid brain telling feeding me lies. I hate it.
Like I don't let myself get close to anyone (except my boyfriend, who is close to more than just me) since all my friends from school abandoned me when I got out off an abusive relationship with one of their friends, who obviously is more important to them than me. Is it my fault I haven't made a closer friend than an acquaintance in over a year? What happens when the one person I let myself get close to ( boyfriend) gets bored of me just being his attachment in the eyes of all his friends?( not spoken yet, just another worry of mine) How it's not being able to let myself accept a new friend affecting my mind, my anxiety, my possible depression? Who do I even talk about this with, strangers?
Better than yesterday, but I still feel extremely lonely and worthless. I feel as though I annoy people with just being alive.
Sick to my stomach. My heart rate goes up and down. My heart aches like it's being squeezed tightly. I feel weak In the legs ... one more step feels like they will give out. I feel hopeless and very much alone in this very deep dark hole I've put myself in
@brightZebra3904 I can relate. Today has been exhausting for me mentally, physically, and emotionally but tomorrow's a new day and hopefully we'll both start to feel better soon. I just keep telling myself that in the future I'm going to look back and see that stressing about it wasn't worth it and that I'm only gonna be stronger than I was before. Hopefully you will too :)
tired, but happy!
Very lonely
Weird. In between depressed and numb. I seem to feel better when I'm around friends, but I feel like breaking down when I'm alone. My head and chest hurts only when he creeps back into my mind, so I try to distract myself from thinking about it. I'm trying to be as strong and positive as I can because I know I can get through this. It's just that having the most important person in your life gone, you don't really know what to do anymore... :|
Useless... Again
Just fine.
