Anxious
I feel sad.
Jumbled . Im experiencing a worl of emotions and I cant seem to get off this roller coaster . Every little thing bothers me . Im feeling used by some people I call the closest to me . Im feeling happy about one thing. But completely sad about another . My anxiety is through the roof I cant even leave my bedroom without breaking down in tears or blaking out in anger . I hate the way I automatically assume to the worse in situations due to the things in my past. But I cant help it. Im either crazy or Im right when I assume the worse . And I hate taking that chance of getting hurt, so I just expect nothing good . If that makes sense . Im a mess 90% of the time In all honesty. And I never use to be this way. I use to be so full of life nothing could drag me down . Til one day, it did . And I havent gotten up since.
I dont want pitty or anything , just some positive vibes or some healpful advice or resources!
I'm feeling low i guess you could say. Yesterday i was on top of the world. I've been proud of how i handle working 3 jobs and juggling 3 farms. My two puppies have been coming along greatly with their training as my older one watches. But for some reason everything is bothering me lately. I'm not sure when i actually enjoyed anything or had fun. The emotional roller coaster is driving me nuts. When i take a day off i pretty much explode with worry on if work will make it without me.
I feel sad
the same ways I feel every day.
Alone in a house I was abused in as a kid. Though I am an adult now, sitting with my grandmother, I feel young. and stuck and triggered.
sleepy
eh. but better than yesterday and the days before i guess, i don't feel as hopeless.
I'm sick today :(